The Wounds Of Adoption

I always felt haunted in my own body by the ghostly feeling of these unresolved bleeding wounds of being given away.  Even as a grown woman,  I still needed & wanted answers that only she had the power to relinquish over me.  What would make a mother want to give their child away was a very big question I had, especially becoming a mother of my own adding more emotions to wounds that would never seem to heal.

this month specifically was dedicated to love, magic and pagan sex rituals..FYI

    bastille my heart as I love to watch a good whitewashed celebrated PAGAN festival creatively molded into a saint holiday to better serve its “people” politely without any threads of unholy beliefs, oh but yet it does as I cackle in my witchiest way.. we for century’s have unknowing participated in pagan ritual without ever realizing it and have even encourage ourContinue reading “this month specifically was dedicated to love, magic and pagan sex rituals..FYI”

sometimes, when the rest of the world is rooting for your failure, there is a sense of desire to show them, to teach them actually

        it was 6 years ago today in the midst of a evening winter michigan blizzard, that I had schlepped both of my kids out, and proceeded without any permission to pick up my unannounced future husband at the airport..while every other passenger had made their way out, I was left empty handed still waiting for my knight and shinning armor toContinue reading “sometimes, when the rest of the world is rooting for your failure, there is a sense of desire to show them, to teach them actually”

there are some people in good conscious who go through life imposturing a persona that they dream to be

  imagine yourself for a moment if you can, going to a place that you frequent because it is the swankiest hippest place that every body just wants to be apart of..nobody can say why exactly that makes its so fucking cool or put their finger on it, but who cares, its the IT place that every one talks about andContinue reading “there are some people in good conscious who go through life imposturing a persona that they dream to be”

I decided to write myself your open letter of a much needed apology..

I have had to learn the REAL power of forgiveness over the course of my life, and the reasons why it is so important and valuable to always stay true to yourself..as we approach the Jewish holiday of Yom Kippor I am faced again with the treacherous act of having to go through a series of actions and emotionsContinue reading “I decided to write myself your open letter of a much needed apology..”

what is said at the table, stays at the table

I have been a working manicurist for over 18 years now, among one of the longest continuous committed relationship I have had thus far in my life..i got into this business after I came back home from Israel after living there for 7.5 years returning with barley any usable skills..i had recently become a single mom to my one year old littleContinue reading “what is said at the table, stays at the table”