Posted on Leave a comment

10 years gone….buh BYE

This decade is almost a wrap stepping into 2020 having done some massive personal healing and growth, restoring my mind body spirit connections with balance, harmony and unlimited amounts of unconditional love.  If you saw where I was 10 years ago, you wouldn’t recognize me in that woman I’ve become today..

What I went through personally on a physical, emotional, mental and spiritual level and what I had to do on the little amount of energy, faith and resources I had left for this grand shift, you would be amazed.  Sometimes its the brink of what feels like an emotional extinction that can power a generated come back, making your adversity the feeding grounds for your next grand act. Continue reading 10 years gone….buh BYE

Posted on Leave a comment

how emotional dis ease can affect our health on an energetic level..

I had a crystal revelation moment (most of you from facebook will probably stop reading at this point) while I was outside rereading my vibrational medicine was part of my reading curriculum for the crystal healing certification course I completed in the winter, finding the book highly fascinating and educational in my evolution of being a healing spiritual influencer..

Sometimes we tend to move through things out of pure excitement and joy missing the elemental factors that are in plane sight..we are so occupied with binging everything that excites us, not really paying as close attention as we should be missing key factors that eventually, hopefully we pick back up in other ways, maybe..

When we think of the human body from an energetic point of view (go ahead and put your kookoo hat on for a minute), we have the ability to view our “body” from an etheric advantage, expanding outward moving into emotional, vital and astral auras bodies of our entire being..yes, they actually exist..

So basically our human energy field is like a radiating bubble around making us vulnerable and susceptible to many factors we come in contact with verbally, emotionally, mentally and physically that we never actually gave thought or value too in terms of ourselves and with can be affected without ever noticing you have actually been violated and dumbed on.

Take for instance (flow with me) someone standing in line at a store while being privy to a heated argument between two other people standing in the same line..while nobody is ever needing to physically put hands on another to be affected, the words and emotional exchange alone hold a charge that penetrates into your own astral field of energy..this has a subtle effect depending on the experience believe it or not, which is thankfully in this situation just a temporary moment of inconvenience..

Its really the same analogy (to break it down for you better) if you were all collectively taking a shit together in the same bathroom with individual toilets and simultaneously flushing your waste with the seats covers open..this then leads to having all the bacteria from the toilet come up and microscopically spatter its contents on and around you contaminating you without you really noticing but maybe being slightly grossed out..this is why I flush with the seat down..

If you are sensitive enough to other people energy, you might walk out of a situation thats compromised you in your energy field feeling tired, drained, annoyed simply by being subjected too it, just like you would be polluted in a bathroom..most people in general are not even aware of what they pick up like toxic cling, walking around the rest of the day with some one else’s funk on imagine living your life in constant energetic infestation..

Sometimes we even happen to continue the story of what we experienced at the store, internalizing it past one of our external senses that alters our thoughts and emotions for the rest of the day..this could cause us to become agitated, or bitchy, feeling sluggish or have an upset stomach without ever piecing together the cause and effect that it had taking it into our lives uninvited..

What occurred to me while I was reading was the idea of working to purify each unseen but very real layer of our energetic field that we have and reprograming the thoughtforms that have found a way to nestle and bury themselves into each existing layer all the way into our physical body..boy that was one long very scientific sentence for someone who couldn’t pass a biology or chemistry course EVER in her educational years..snort snort

Think about it for a scientific minute, every 7 years our cells regenerate all on their own basically creating a new series of nuclear building block for our entire being yet in the same energetic space and the way, every 7 years we move into a different chakra starting with birth at what is called the ROOT CHAKRA within our body system learning the values of each of its 7 centers..every 7 years we move up the chakra system and at the age of 49 they reset all together and then we begin living what we learned in each chakra beginning at the root..

How might this be important, well, if you think about it from a energetic point of view, every 7 years something profound is happening around and within us on a molecular and energetic level, without us ever knowing..when you become aware of all the things that surround you and go into the presence of being a human being with this much energy, you actually have more power over your health than what has been thought about and provided to us.. 

Although our cells might be new, the negative energetic compound of dis ease programmed into these place (sometimes lifetimes) continues to contain all of negative charged if it goes unhealed emotionally, spiritually, mentally and physically the cells don’t really have a chance and begin to change into the condition of the old pattern again repeating the same behavior on a molecular level..god that was exhausting to explain..

The problem for most people I find is actually seriously working on their emotional shit..i mean really getting down and dirty allowing a true authentic real (no bullshit for instagram or facebook) healing to permitalty take place to what they have been subjected too and what they subjected others too..the biggest obstacle is the continuous loop lie we tell ourselves and everyone else over and over again to avoid the work that is necessary..

Instead, you see a growing number of repetitive problems with personality disorders, nutrition problems, addictive behaviors, entitled, lazy, egotistical culture of humans unaccountable for their own state of mind, health and over all being pointing their fingers at every one else because its too one wants to feel their pain and as a society we lack compassion and kindness for those who suffer..its much easier to diagnose and prescribe as a solution while the core problems continue to manifest..

You can have a life that isnt full of emotional, toxic thought infested mental static energetic yucky cling that will continue to penetrate and make you sick over and over again that no drug will ever begin to kill.. you are apart of the antidote HEAL THY SELF..for shits and giggle,  just notice the energy around you the next time you are around anything you don’t like (people, places, things) and  notice how you feel in your body participating in it and what your body does with the energy because of it..peace love faith  <3 <3 <3










Posted on Leave a comment

this Scorpio season is all about stripping you down to the nitty gritty and getting REAL


this right now, is my most favorite time of the year..its when my beloved sign of Scorpio has comes into its full majestic season and when the energetic veil between us and the spirit world begins to thin every so elegantly for a small period of time..right now, we have an opportunity available for us, if wanted, to feel and connect with our loved ones more so now than ever in this specific time of season..this cosmic Scorpio effect will help offer you to shed your layers exposing the raw truth leaving it up to you to decide how deep you wish to go..

this Scorpio season is all about stripping you down to the nitty gritty and getting REAL in the most truth be told authentic way..its about discovering the deepest aspects of our selves and using its powerful energy to bring light to the darkest parts of our don’t have to be a Scorpio to do the work of a Scorpio because the energetic alliance that is shifting into this constellation is theoretically enough for the cosmic shift to naturally happen on its own, it only asks of you to be willing to emotionally travel deep..

meaning, that things will naturally happen this time of season that might have you having to question things that are no longer making sense..maybe things seem a bit off, as they should be, because in nature if you look outside, is starting to drastically change for the next season and right now what you are witnessing in nature, you might possibly be confronted with in your physically every day life..maybe for some its on a small minuet scale and for others it will be presented like the rug was just ripped out from underneath them..

this is the time to finish up old projects that don’t get your physical attention yet carry your emotional stress and decide to let them go..its about ending stale relationships that are no longer viable and a waist of your precious time while creating room for new aspects to have space to grow in..its time to really let go of beliefs that are destroying your higher self, and take a deeper cold hard look at your life and see what can be purged that is taking space and what needs to be saved because its provides you with nourishment..

life is preparing you for its cold long winter months and nature will automatically shift into it whether your prepared or not..this specific period where the days are becoming shorter and darker, eerier as nature sheds its self for its upcoming departure to its instinctual survival..there is so much beauty in it for me to watch my beloved trees change so majestically beautiful, before the elements strip it bare before our eyes so naturally unapologetically..this is the majestic force of the Scorpio..

this time of year always seems to hit me in a place buried deep within, that begins to unravel emotions and beliefs requiring of me to only to go deep and be present..i think this time of year transports my spirit back to a place that forces me to sit within and do some more inner work before the long winter months arrive, that are meant for saving resources and offering room to plant the seeds for the up and coming year..

sometimes the things that we believe to “appear” dark in our projected imagery is really something very different..sometimes its the light that is dirtied with shame, judgment and harsh attributes that you conditionally put there to avoid seeing the truth, and the darkness is easier to convince one of than the authenticity of the illuminate light..there is beauty in the season of this sign, that gets such a bad reputation..Its the one season that will hold you accountable at your rawest form and require of you to shed and transform seeing the whole entire truth before your eyes if you can tap into this beautiful Scorpio energy..

happy beloved Scorpio season,  may the deepest path taken bring you to achieve ultimate courage, validation, passion, strength, wisdom, gratitude, truth, compassion, sensitivity, loyalty, justice, intuitive knowledge, perseverance, sincerity,  determination, stamina, and a love like no other…peace love faith hope <3




Posted on Leave a comment

just like you I am at times riddled with fear at the actual thought of transformation




I seriously hate change, really I do regardless of all the paths I have conveniently accepted throughout my entire life purposely and or would think by now that I have mastered its skill along with the feeling of being semi under control but just like you I am at times riddled with fear at the actual thought of scares the living shit out of me frankly every time i am asked by the universe to take that risk in its synchronicity and step off my comfortable platform and into uncharted landscapes..

one, its a lot of work mentally physically spiritually and universally, and second it demands of you to see a honest intention and decide what you are going to do with be perfectly clear i have always had to take these life risks feeling and seemingly alone all by my self without ever having a true safety net to save me when i was splattered on the ground..up until now i was without having the safeguard and protection that i now receive and have of my husband yet the survivors trauma and fear still feels very real inside of me even though i know intellectually a work in progress to become fearless.. Continue reading just like you I am at times riddled with fear at the actual thought of transformation

Posted on Leave a comment

sometimes there is a huge confusion over the art and act of healing

bearhow often do you poke your wounds in order to create  reason to feel something that would otherwise be in the process of healing because of the addiction to the attention it creates for often do you give others permission without realizing the power behind it, the ability to rewound the emotions you have suffered from, because you are so used to feeling bad and getting rewarded for the negative behavior in the process enabling you never to elevate to a healthier healing ability..

I know this sounds harsh, and very unsympathetic, yet there is a time frame and synchronicity to our journey when it comes to trauma and the ability to forgive while healing..sometimes we become more wrapped up into the whys of it happening at that specific moment because of the lack of control that we feel based around it rewounding and wounding ourselves over and over again keeping us in a state of neither here nor there.. Continue reading sometimes there is a huge confusion over the art and act of healing

Posted on Leave a comment

i had a gold card status of this defective behavior

people-who-cant-stand-to-see-the-success-of-others-will-never-experience-their-own-quote-1do you ever sometimes find it hard to be naturally happy for some one else’s you find yourself deliberately bashing and wanting to sabotage somebody else metaphorical parade because it was them instead of you on that beautiful float getting and receiving all the attention..what is that and why do we tend do it when some one other than ourselves is shining in the light and rightfully so too..

why is it so fucking hard for some people to be generally happy and supportive applauding work well done instead of snickering like jealous resentful idiots.. why do we behave and act like “as if our lives suck” because of the advancement of others taking it so personal and to heart being a total Debbie downer when it has absolutely nothing to do with us at all..such a polluted narcissistic way of thinking.. Continue reading i had a gold card status of this defective behavior

Posted on Leave a comment

my mind body spirit SOUL was craving his like an addict..

sometimes, when we decide to undertake a drastic change in life, it can take a very long while for the rest of the world to catch up to where you are in your metamorphous of a  transition..sometimes we tend to forget that while we have spent a long time evolving within ourselves, we haven’t necessarily shared or include all the details to our change with others leaving them potentially in the dark..i think sometimes when we do decide to do something revolutionary changes,  we tend to not want the outside negative chatter to breed havoc in our state of mind resulting in the possible derailing of your evolutionary self keeping the of transformation to ourselves..

so while Eran and I set out to discover the soulful tapestry of our profound love with one another, the rest of the world was in a far off distant land without any specific understanding or comprehension to what was actually taking place..neither of our family nor friends could truly process or understand the hows and whys of how this took place and happened, yet it did..there was a lot of skepticism and rolling of the eyes when we would choose to profess our story about this connection, making it hard for those listening to digest, understandably so I guess..who really believes in fairytales anyways..RIGHT.. Continue reading my mind body spirit SOUL was craving his like an addict..