What I realized during some of these long over due evaluations of connections was that I was my own form of toxic poisoning to my well being, thoughts & beliefs. I had for years consumed the tainted koolaid that was served from a narcissistic parent that I thought was a refreshment, distorting my entire truth of self beliefs. I found a way during my later years in healing to forgive myself & that abused little girl inside that simply didn’t know any better or differently.
Patterns are a series of unlimited continuous happenings that give a suggested look or outcome based on the experience before. Sometimes these series of sequences can be a positive model in trying to gage the configuration on situations that you are watching or being watched on. Sometimes these patterns can be behavioral, offering aContinue reading “The Unhealthy Patterns Of Behavior”
I was adopted into a generational abusive dysfunctional family, having a narcissist for a mother & an enabler as a father. Each one of their 3 adopted children were groomed & designed to play out of the roles designated by the monarch. We unknowingly & willingly took turns throughout our lives in a triangulation of the goldenContinue reading “National Adoption Awareness Month ~ Behind Closed Doors”
I have been in family esk therapy now for over 5 months. It took admitting that we as a unit needed an intervention to help aid in our relationship as a “unconventional” family with highly toxic extremities. I have no shame in saying that sometimes there are things, people, behavior & situations that are outside your capacity of managing, being encouragedContinue reading “Beautifully Fucked Up”
I got some pretty fucking wonderful birthday gifts from my beloved husband and kids, friends and clients, despite the horrible rotten no good kinda day I had on my birthday last week..lets start by saying, i have never been a big fan of this day for many different reasons, experiences and my personal feelings surrounding it..its a weirdContinue reading “those beautiful thoughtful gifts that I got a week ago are still sitting in piles half unopened because I cant be bothered at the moment, and ONE OF THEM IS A NEW PURSE< CAN YOU IMAGINE..”