What I realized during some of these long over due evaluations of connections was that I was my own form of toxic poisoning to my well being, thoughts & beliefs. I had for years consumed the tainted koolaid that was served from a narcissistic parent that I thought was a refreshment, distorting my entire truth of self beliefs. I found a way during my later years in healing to forgive myself & that abused little girl inside that simply didn’t know any better or differently.
I was adopted into a generational abusive dysfunctional family, having a narcissist for a mother & an enabler as a father. Each one of their 3 adopted children were groomed & designed to play out of the roles designated by the monarch. We unknowingly & willingly took turns throughout our lives in a triangulation of the goldenContinue reading “National Adoption Awareness Month ~ Behind Closed Doors”
I have been in family esk therapy now for over 5 months. It took admitting that we as a unit needed an intervention to help aid in our relationship as a “unconventional” family with highly toxic extremities. I have no shame in saying that sometimes there are things, people, behavior & situations that are outside your capacity of managing, being encouragedContinue reading “Beautifully Fucked Up”
Do you ever wonder what life could be like if we weren’t overly attached by the power of the whys we choose to hold on to things so tightly, squeezing the shit out of them afraid to let them go..people, beliefs, wealth, situations that we feel so obliged to essentially beg for as the cardContinue reading “I dare you to let go of one thing that scares you the most..”