I discovered a secret about my biological mother that I had spent my entire life formulating an entirely different belief & opinion around after meeting up with her childhood best friend for tea some years ago. I think I spun a completely different story in my head because of the subjective thoughts that were portrayedContinue reading “November Is National Adoption Month ~ The Secret Gift From My Biological Mother”
WELCOME TO THE SEASON OF THE SCORPIO ( can you hear the sounds of my crackly witchy laugh). I have been antipating all year long this journey back to my beloved sign for an over all reboot. I suggest you buckle it up buttercups for a lengthy ride through the belly of the underworld & these even more mysterious uncertainContinue reading “Season Of The Scorpio”
Tonight at sundown begins the Jewish High Holiday of Rosh Hashanah. It is one of the holiest days of the Jewish religion, being the beginning of our New Year. It’s customary during this time to celebrate its sweet beginning & also gain some insight & reflection over the year in general. This one will forContinue reading “Happy Healthy New Year”
My first real informative memory of opinion outside my home life was my being held back in 1st grade & the humiliation is suffered with the same first grade teacher & on the playground with my peers. I was teased, made fun of & called a lot of hurtful names for being stupid, retreating me to a place of make believe & isolation. They must have been true if my entire educational system believed this of me, handicapping my entire school experience from there on out. You would never know this now by meeting me today, what I had suffered from as a child.
It saddens me deeply that this human infectious disease & infestation of HATRED is overpopulating this world more than any other virus on this planet. The numbers of this man made pathogen are frightening me more than any of the numbers associated with Mother Natures illnesses. If nature can have a cure for everything it produces, why aren’t we as humans desperately trying to find the cure or remedy within our own twisted fucked up ways & eradicate what is ultimately killing all of us again & again over time.
I have suffered many forms of this abuse throughout my life, causing me to question the lack of love & self worth I once had. In some unconscious capacity, I believed I deserved to be treated in this destructive manner, being adopted, feeling so unlovable & not being able to actually see the marks of abuse upon my skin but rather feel them in the deepest places of my psyche. My earliest form of love came at the hands of my adopted narcissistic mother, so knowing any differently was never my option, till much later in life when I met my now husband.
I had an epiphany yesterday after celebrating my husbands 42 birthday this past weekend. I realized in that singular moment of pure happiness that if those various suicide attempts I had tried way back when would have taken my life, I wouldn’t have be able to be where I am today. I would have missed out on such a beautiful lifeContinue reading “Life After Narcissistic Abuse”
My 40 year decade is now coming to its official closing ceremony as I hit the 50 mark tomorrow, which I have to say I’m beyond thrilled about. These last 10 years have given me more lessons, wisdom and gifts ( which while going through let’s be honest at times I could never understand )Continue reading “BYE 40lisha HELLO 50lishious”
I have had some good odds of luck lately, call it planetary favoritism you might say in my chart of Scorpio. Last month for shits and giggles I applied for a slot at the TEDX DETROIT LAB that is an exhibit part of the show, showcasing all kinds of artist and vendors, picking me toContinue reading “I AM A TEDX DETROIT EXHIBITOR”