The NON Father’s Day

I haven’t celebrated fathers day in over 7 years now when my former father decided it was more important to keep his friendship with my ex husband than it was having a relationship with his daughter.  I was once very close to my dad growing up (my former mother despised our bond), idolizing his statureContinue reading “The NON Father’s Day”

The Shame Of Weight

I grew up in a home where the scale for ones body weight was a solid fixture in the upstairs hallway.  For years as a child I would watch my former weight obsessed mother step onto her throne that was her scale, hoping for a number that she could happily live with.  This self abusiveContinue reading “The Shame Of Weight”

I Am The Light

I never realized how bright my light actual was until I came to terms with how disruptive & chaotic my family background had been, living off of the emotional crumbs that I once thought were full course meals of sustenance. I never put together that the ache in my emotional body was that of starvation, surviving on artificial processedContinue reading “I Am The Light”

The Social Game Of Operator

Have you ever played that telephone game “Operator”, where you whisper a statement into the ear of the person standing next to you that is then reiterated throughout the entire circle until it comes back around to you?  Most times, the sentence that was originally whispered will begin to take a shape of its ownContinue reading “The Social Game Of Operator”

The (UN)Mothers Of This Day

I was at the post office dropping off a parcel for a customer & the woman who always rings me up wished me a Happy Mothers day as we finished the transaction.  I was walking away thanking her & quickly turned back around to ask if she herself was a mom, because truthfully you neverContinue reading “The (UN)Mothers Of This Day”

The Health Of Our Emotions

 Emotions can have the tendency to make us ill when gone unmanaged, not putting it together with the physical body.  Sometimes they can make one sick enough to physically change & alter the cellular movement of the body, generating illness out of the cause & effect of harmful mental emotional attributes that create havoc within theContinue reading “The Health Of Our Emotions”

The Archetype Of A Queen/King Bee

I can remember back when I was a kid once upon a time ago, being purposely left out of parties & group hangouts that every body else got the invite too.  I was felt embarrassed to share the truth that I wasn’t invited when asked by the other girls who were going.  It usually boils down to the one MEANContinue reading “The Archetype Of A Queen/King Bee”

The Unhealthy Patterns Of Behavior

Patterns are a series of unlimited continuous happenings that give a suggested look or outcome based on the experience before.  Sometimes these series of sequences can be a positive model in trying to gage the configuration on situations that you are watching or being watched on.   Sometimes these patterns can be behavioral, offering aContinue reading “The Unhealthy Patterns Of Behavior”

The Relentless Loop Of Fear

Have you ever had one of those relationships (physically, spiritually, emotionally) with something or someone that you feel you need to hold onto for dear life with in order to maintain its connection.  You cling tightly to this relationship even though you known in the deepest parts of your brain & soul that it’s unhealthyContinue reading “The Relentless Loop Of Fear”

The Social Seeker Using Its Random Act Of “Kindness”

I had an epiphany during a workout one day while listening to a podcast.  It opened my eyes to the amount people who broadcasted their “KINDNESS” simply for the show of social media attention & its epic proportions in gaining a viral validation instead of just being an ever day good samaritan.  The desire nowContinue reading “The Social Seeker Using Its Random Act Of “Kindness””