I was adopted into a generational abusive dysfunctional family, having a narcissist for a mother & an enabler as a father. Each one of their 3 adopted children were groomed & designed to play out of the roles designated by the monarch. We unknowingly & willingly took turns throughout our lives in a triangulation of the goldenContinue reading “National Adoption Awareness Month ~ Behind Closed Doors”
I was reunited with my biological father jack (who lived in the State of Washington) back in 2000 via snail mail, phone calls, email & eventually facebook 2 years after I legally opened my adoption file back in 1998. My initial response to the lack of reception was heartache & disappointment that nobody showed interestContinue reading “November Is Adoption Awareness Month ~ My Biological Father Jack & The Gift In The Wake Of His Death”
I discovered a secret about my biological mother that I had spent my entire life formulating an entirely different belief & opinion around after meeting up with her childhood best friend for tea some years ago. I think I spun a completely different story in my head because of the subjective thoughts that were portrayedContinue reading “November Is National Adoption Month ~ The Secret Gift From My Biological Mother”
The first label that I was branded with was the one at my birth. Its the one that identified me as being given away that I unknowingly carried with me throughout my life. This one time adjective word allowed everyone & their mother to know I wasn’t the real child yet the one that wasContinue reading “November Is Adoption Month ~ The Problem With The Adoption Label”
Tonight at sundown begins the Jewish High Holiday of Rosh Hashanah. It is one of the holiest days of the Jewish religion, being the beginning of our New Year. It’s customary during this time to celebrate its sweet beginning & also gain some insight & reflection over the year in general. This one will forContinue reading “Happy Healthy New Year”
My first real informative memory of opinion outside my home life was my being held back in 1st grade & the humiliation is suffered with the same first grade teacher & on the playground with my peers. I was teased, made fun of & called a lot of hurtful names for being stupid, retreating me to a place of make believe & isolation. They must have been true if my entire educational system believed this of me, handicapping my entire school experience from there on out. You would never know this now by meeting me today, what I had suffered from as a child.
It saddens me deeply that this human infectious disease & infestation of HATRED is overpopulating this world more than any other virus on this planet. The numbers of this man made pathogen are frightening me more than any of the numbers associated with Mother Natures illnesses. If nature can have a cure for everything it produces, why aren’t we as humans desperately trying to find the cure or remedy within our own twisted fucked up ways & eradicate what is ultimately killing all of us again & again over time.
I have suffered many forms of this abuse throughout my life, causing me to question the lack of love & self worth I once had. In some unconscious capacity, I believed I deserved to be treated in this destructive manner, being adopted, feeling so unlovable & not being able to actually see the marks of abuse upon my skin but rather feel them in the deepest places of my psyche. My earliest form of love came at the hands of my adopted narcissistic mother, so knowing any differently was never my option, till much later in life when I met my now husband.
I have had a few of my clients reach out to me during this isolation period, expressing to me how much they miss their time with me & their manicures. So I decided to make this tutorial to show people some easy steps at getting a pretty good home manicure from yourself. http://www.facebook.com/magicalmaven/videos/10157895895193145/Continue reading “Do it your self manicure tutorial”
My 40 year decade is now coming to its official closing ceremony as I hit the 50 mark tomorrow, which I have to say I’m beyond thrilled about. These last 10 years have given me more lessons, wisdom and gifts ( which while going through let’s be honest at times I could never understand )Continue reading “BYE 40lisha HELLO 50lishious”