My true Father’s Day..

I don't celebrate fathers day anymore after a couple of years ago my dad chose to have a relationship with my ex husband over choosing to keep me as his daughter..that's the way this cookie crumbled, forcing me to make him choose a side that altered and effected the outcome for the rest of our lives.. it was in that moment … Continue reading My true Father’s Day..

I pronounce today, step dad day!

I don't think you ever really realize what you signed up for up for, until you are knee deep in enemy territory with an entire former family (I had to eventually cut family ties) rooting for your failure..still to this day mind you..

#ifmywoundswerevisible

yesterday was WORLD NARCISSIST ABUSE AWARENESS DAY..all the haters can roll their eyes until their dizzy and pass out but this abuse is very real as real can be, its just extremely under the radar and covert creating traumatic invisible wounds that don't externally bleed.. I grew up in a home with adoptive parents that consisted of a mother who suffers from this personality disorder and a co … Continue reading #ifmywoundswerevisible

the cultish effect in speaking bullsh!t as a first language..

I stopped participating in the conversing art of bullshit a couple of years ago and got away from the "bullshit cult" I unintentionally belonged too in the process, REALLY!..we all know its a cultish language that's made up and full of empty vocabulary words that kool aids your brain to make you believe in something that is the farthest from the truth to hook line and … Continue reading the cultish effect in speaking bullsh!t as a first language..

your children are not your children..an enlighten perspective

I have been a huge SUPER SOUL SUNDAY fan for a long while now, watching my DVR episodes when I need a spiritual pick me up or just some added food for thought..i have always loved and respected Oprah and found this specific series that she does something I could relate too, telling my husband one day it will … Continue reading your children are not your children..an enlighten perspective

i believe this polar bear is my dream spirit totem protector..

i had a dream the other night that I was visited by a polar bear coming out of the water up onto the ice and gazing intensely into my face as if it was intentionally conveying an unspoken message for me to hear..i believe this polar bear is my dream spirit totem protector.. do you ever find yourself having … Continue reading i believe this polar bear is my dream spirit totem protector..

over time i became a scapegoat survivor..

  i grew up in an adopted dysfunctional family having a narcissist as a mother.. out of the 3 of us, one of us was designated to play the role of the scapegoat otherwise referred to as the black sheep of the family..im pretty sure i willingly took turns playing that role with my younger sibling passing it back and forth whenever it was convenient and suited … Continue reading over time i became a scapegoat survivor..

THE MOTHERS DAY SHAFT..

so mothers day started off interesting to say the least..it all went down with a phone call from my teenage daughter not really wishing me a happy mothers day BUT instead asking me if at around 430 (we were picking them up at 130 from her dads) she could go with her father instead to his mothers day family BBQ..how ya like them apples.. my immediate response of rightful disappointment to her question was retaliated with the quickness … Continue reading THE MOTHERS DAY SHAFT..

those beautiful thoughtful gifts that I got a week ago are still sitting in piles half unopened because I cant be bothered at the moment, and ONE OF THEM IS A NEW PURSE< CAN YOU IMAGINE..

I got some pretty fucking wonderful birthday gifts from my beloved husband and kids, friends and clients, despite the horrible rotten no good kinda day I had on my birthday last week..lets start by saying, i have never been a big fan of this day for many different reasons, experiences and my personal feelings surrounding it..its a weird … Continue reading those beautiful thoughtful gifts that I got a week ago are still sitting in piles half unopened because I cant be bothered at the moment, and ONE OF THEM IS A NEW PURSE< CAN YOU IMAGINE..

its all about the transformation of ones self, that only you can do for yourself..

I went to my monthly tarot meet up yesterday at the Boston tea room which is a metaphysical shop located in downtown Ferndale..to me, its the equivalent of my daughter madi, who's obsessed with make up, going to Sephora..i feel like my inner child is awakened in this kind of environment as I get to "play" and "dabble" … Continue reading its all about the transformation of ones self, that only you can do for yourself..