There are usually specific times in our lives that call upon us to participate in some epic shit created by the universe, usually when we are not feeling so incredibly outstanding. Many times we see & view these moments as more of a personal assassination when we are at the lowest points in our life, challengingContinue reading “The Birth Of The Legendary Phoenix”
My husband is an immigrant, coming to this country not for the usual attainment of the American dream but for something far more magical. He came here for me. This alone put us in a place of uncertainty, not fully understanding the lengths & hoops we would have to go threw for the cost ofContinue reading “Immigration & The American Dream”
Have you ever had one of those relationships (physically, spiritually, emotionally) with something or someone that you feel you need to hold onto for dear life with in order to maintain its connection. You cling tightly to this relationship even though you known in the deepest parts of your brain & soul that it’s unhealthyContinue reading “The Relentless Loop Of Fear”
It’s the pagen festival of Ostara, celebrating the peak season of spring in the Northern Hemisphere. Nature has been reawakening for the last month & a half, slowly making a comeback for the upcoming months of warmth & sunshine. It’s time for us to get back up & shake off that winter energy that wasContinue reading “Crystals For Spring”
I discovered a secret about my biological mother that I had spent my entire life formulating an entirely different belief & opinion around after meeting up with her childhood best friend for tea some years ago. I think I spun a completely different story in my head because of the subjective thoughts that were portrayedContinue reading “November Is National Adoption Month ~ The Secret Gift From My Biological Mother”
” YOU AND THE RELATIONSHIP WITH YOUR CHILDREN ARE THE ROOT..IT IS THE SEED..IF YOU CAN UPHOLD THEIR WHOLENESS, WHICH MEANS YOU HAVE TO HEAL YOUR BROKENNESS, YOU WILL LIBERATE YOUR CHILDREN”.. When I first heard this quote I had to roll it around my head a while, since I am not used to havingContinue reading “Healing the Family Tree”
My first real informative memory of opinion outside my home life was my being held back in 1st grade & the humiliation is suffered with the same first grade teacher & on the playground with my peers. I was teased, made fun of & called a lot of hurtful names for being stupid, retreating me to a place of make believe & isolation. They must have been true if my entire educational system believed this of me, handicapping my entire school experience from there on out. You would never know this now by meeting me today, what I had suffered from as a child.
It saddens me deeply that this human infectious disease & infestation of HATRED is overpopulating this world more than any other virus on this planet. The numbers of this man made pathogen are frightening me more than any of the numbers associated with Mother Natures illnesses. If nature can have a cure for everything it produces, why aren’t we as humans desperately trying to find the cure or remedy within our own twisted fucked up ways & eradicate what is ultimately killing all of us again & again over time.
I have suffered many forms of this abuse throughout my life, causing me to question the lack of love & self worth I once had. In some unconscious capacity, I believed I deserved to be treated in this destructive manner, being adopted, feeling so unlovable & not being able to actually see the marks of abuse upon my skin but rather feel them in the deepest places of my psyche. My earliest form of love came at the hands of my adopted narcissistic mother, so knowing any differently was never my option, till much later in life when I met my now husband.