I can remember the love hate relationship I had with parenting that no one really openly talks about, even more so during difficult times of separation, division of family or when divorcing a narcissist. Most people want to save face portraying an ideology that every thing is “great” with raising children, hiding behind their own faceContinue reading “The (Un) Fun Of Divorce”
The power to forgive myself was something I learned when I began to recognize & become hyper aware of the energy surrounding a victim mentality within the sins of my own self hatred. I had once willingly allowed room for these kind of destructive feelings, thoughts, beliefs, ideas & stigma to plagued me throughout my life,Continue reading “The Power Of Forgiveness & Its Act Of Mercy”
I never truly knew how abused I was until I began to heal. This sacred personal work is prudent & detrimental to me, my husband, my daughter & the future legacy that follows. I decided that my children deserved a healthier loving legacy than the one I got adopted into, filled with secrets, lies, distorted beliefs & with its own legacy of unhealed trauma that brewed resentment & anger camouflage to come across as love.
I don’t think you ever really realize what you signed up for up for, until you are knee deep in enemy territory with an entire former family (I had to eventually cut family ties) rooting for your failure..still to this day mind you..
After some back & forth questions of my identity, the veil came down & together we embraced this unique reunion closing the circle to my biological mothers. For over a few years now we have been in contact, making the gap between us seem a bit smaller but today that is about to change. Jody (my aunt) is physically going to meet me this afternoon for the very first time & spend the week in Michigan getting know my family. This again is another circle closed by the sister of my biological parent that could never make the journey themself. Today Im going to meet my very own flesh & blood on my mothers side.