as an adoptee i never once learned at the age of birth how to mourn and grieve properly FOR MY LOSS

  sometimes we view the challenges and disappointments in our life as negative occurrences there to destroy the human spirit, when actually in most instances they happen in order for you to capture the heart of the matter and thrive in adversity brightly preparing you for extreme growth.. I know, how do you explain the loss of loved … Continue reading as an adoptee i never once learned at the age of birth how to mourn and grieve properly FOR MY LOSS

its nice to see finally a series “THIS IS US” that describes a part of me in a rawness otherwise non adopted folks will never begin to fathom

    my husband and I just starting watching the series "this is us" on demand by my clients recommendation adding a bit more depth (lol) into our otherwise sheepish bravo reality t.v  housewives run we have been having for the last looong while..who knew we would both need a tissue box for every fucking episode and we only just finished the 3rd one.. … Continue reading its nice to see finally a series “THIS IS US” that describes a part of me in a rawness otherwise non adopted folks will never begin to fathom

I continued to LOVE to a level greater than I ever imagined I could, making that my super human power which would make most bitter nasty bitches instead

  some people might look at me as having been really unlucky in the avenue of love, until now, with tremendous amounts of failed relationships behind me, maybe more so than the average person could possibly handle without allowing it to destroy the sacred elements of the heart and spirit..we each come into this life with specific purposes of lesson I … Continue reading I continued to LOVE to a level greater than I ever imagined I could, making that my super human power which would make most bitter nasty bitches instead

I watch poor Ashley I commit to the compulsive behavior of her obsession with rejection.

I was watching the bachelor in paradise last night and something in my head clicked when the light bulb went off about our toxic yet gratifying human behavior..i have explored my emotional life in deep depths and have first hand realized the effects of the compulsive behavior though the effects of rejection as I watch poor Ashley … Continue reading I watch poor Ashley I commit to the compulsive behavior of her obsession with rejection.

one day the beautiful spirit of chris showed up

do you ever believe that your not alone when in truth you perceive yourself to be? Do you believe that when life is over, and our loved ones who have left this physical world are no longer available for communication when unexplainable things go on around us.. you see, I believe in spirit, and for many years believed … Continue reading one day the beautiful spirit of chris showed up

in the wake of tragedy

I was reunited with my biological father jack via snail mail, phone calls, email and eventually facebook back in 2000 after I signed papers to have my adoption file opened in 1998, Just in case someone was looking for me like I was searching for them..don't get me wrong, It was never about the family I was … Continue reading in the wake of tragedy

a beautiful meeting

i met with a woman yesterday, not just any woman, but someone who was my biological mother chris's very best friend growing up..i have waited my entire life for this piece of peace to come no matter what road i had to take in order to aquire the information.. at any stake i had rolled … Continue reading a beautiful meeting

The Secrets Of Being Adopted

Posted on March 9, 2016 by magicalmaven Standard i discovered a secret the other day that i had spent my entire life formulating an entirely different belief around..i didnt know any better for so many reasons, and as someone suffering deeply inside the walls of my being it was a wonderful mechanism for protection and … Continue reading The Secrets Of Being Adopted