Self Empowerment

What I realized during some of these long over due evaluations of connections was that I was my own form of toxic poisoning to my well being, thoughts & beliefs.  I had for years consumed the tainted koolaid that was served from a narcissistic parent that I thought was a refreshment, distorting my entire truth of self beliefs.  I found a way during my later years in healing to forgive myself & that abused little girl inside that simply didn’t know any better or differently.

– A Healthy Formula To Life-

*Go outside & be with Mother Nature. There are many physical, emotional & metaphorical profound healing properties outside in nature that your spirit needs in order to be healthy to survive. *Stay as grounded as you can in the process of life.   *Educate yourself.  Not everyone is built to learn the same way yet there are many avenuesContinue reading “– A Healthy Formula To Life-“

The Gift In Self(ish)Care

Sometimes you have to be selfish (YOU READ THAT CORRECTLY) for your own self care preservation, which normally goes against the nature of most people upbringing regardless of how you were raised.  Im sure even the word SELFISH alone probably makes some, maybe even most people feel uncomfortable because of the negative connotation that surrounds it.Continue reading “The Gift In Self(ish)Care”

The Shame Of Weight

I grew up in a home where the scale for ones body weight was a solid fixture in the upstairs hallway.  For years as a child I would watch my former weight obsessed mother step onto her throne that was her scale, hoping for a number that she could happily live with.  This self abusiveContinue reading “The Shame Of Weight”

The (UN)Mothers Of This Day

I was at the post office dropping off a parcel for a customer & the woman who always rings me up wished me a Happy Mothers day as we finished the transaction.  I was walking away thanking her & quickly turned back around to ask if she herself was a mom, because truthfully you neverContinue reading “The (UN)Mothers Of This Day”

The Emotional Truth About Adoptees Grief & Invisible Loss

Being adopted, I’ve noticed in general we are hardly ever taught how to openly properly mourn & grieve our first greatest initial loss, that ends up dictating & effecting our entire emotional life afterwards.  Human emotions are built in stages during infancy, childhood & adolescence registering & governing the emotional information into our adulthood.  ThisContinue reading “The Emotional Truth About Adoptees Grief & Invisible Loss”

The Health Of Our Emotions

 Emotions can have the tendency to make us ill when gone unmanaged, not putting it together with the physical body.  Sometimes they can make one sick enough to physically change & alter the cellular movement of the body, generating illness out of the cause & effect of harmful mental emotional attributes that create havoc within theContinue reading “The Health Of Our Emotions”

The Unhealthy Patterns Of Behavior

Patterns are a series of unlimited continuous happenings that give a suggested look or outcome based on the experience before.  Sometimes these series of sequences can be a positive model in trying to gage the configuration on situations that you are watching or being watched on.   Sometimes these patterns can be behavioral, offering aContinue reading “The Unhealthy Patterns Of Behavior”

Why I Outgrew Drinking & Chose To Live Clean

I was a youthful stoner party drinker, finding myself finishing off a bottle of wine & a spliff before the hour ended.  Tipsy or stoner drunk was the most perfect place for me to be in my 20’s & 30’s, enjoying the numb buzz that made every thing seem beautiful & my interior world fadeContinue reading “Why I Outgrew Drinking & Chose To Live Clean”

The Power Of Forgiveness & Its Act Of Mercy

The power to forgive myself was something I learned when I began to recognize & become hyper aware of the energy surrounding a victim mentality within the sins of my own self hatred.  I had once willingly allowed room for these kind of destructive feelings, thoughts, beliefs, ideas & stigma to plagued me throughout my life,Continue reading “The Power Of Forgiveness & Its Act Of Mercy”