The Emotional Truth About Adoptees Grief & Invisible Loss

Being adopted, I’ve noticed in general we are hardly ever taught how to openly properly mourn & grieve our first greatest initial loss, that ends up dictating & effecting our entire emotional life afterwards.  Human emotions are built in stages during infancy, childhood & adolescence registering & governing the emotional information into our adulthood.  ThisContinue reading “The Emotional Truth About Adoptees Grief & Invisible Loss”

How I Cut Half My Finger Off

Ive spent the last 46 years without my full right index finger due to a childhood accident I had before turning 5, having now only a half of a finger to point with.  My family had just newly moved to our new home when my older brother & I unintentionally played a game that hadContinue reading “How I Cut Half My Finger Off”

The Unhealthy Patterns Of Behavior

Patterns are a series of unlimited continuous happenings that give a suggested look or outcome based on the experience before.  Sometimes these series of sequences can be a positive model in trying to gage the configuration on situations that you are watching or being watched on.   Sometimes these patterns can be behavioral, offering aContinue reading “The Unhealthy Patterns Of Behavior”

The Power Of Forgiveness & Its Act Of Mercy

The power to forgive myself was something I learned when I began to recognize & become hyper aware of the energy surrounding a victim mentality within the sins of my own self hatred.  I had once willingly allowed room for these kind of destructive feelings, thoughts, beliefs, ideas & stigma to plagued me throughout my life,Continue reading “The Power Of Forgiveness & Its Act Of Mercy”

How Misfortune Saved My Life

I was groomed at an early age to see any kind of human hurt (mental, physical, emotional) as a sign of weakness, unless of course it was my former mother who was having one of her many “munchhausen” episodes, expecting our full sympathetic attention.  I was taught at a young age to shake things off,Continue reading “How Misfortune Saved My Life”

National Adoption Awareness Month ~ Behind Closed Doors

I was adopted into a generational abusive dysfunctional family, having a narcissist for a mother & an enabler as a father.   Each one of their 3 adopted children were groomed & designed to play out of the roles designated by the monarch.  We unknowingly & willingly took turns throughout our lives in a triangulation of the goldenContinue reading “National Adoption Awareness Month ~ Behind Closed Doors”

November Is Adoption Month ~ The Problem With The Adoption Label

The first label that I was branded with was the one at my birth.  Its the one that identified me as being given away that I unknowingly carried with me throughout my life.  This one time adjective word allowed everyone & their mother to know I wasn’t the real child yet the one that wasContinue reading “November Is Adoption Month ~ The Problem With The Adoption Label”

Healing the Family Tree

” YOU AND THE RELATIONSHIP WITH YOUR CHILDREN ARE THE ROOT..IT IS THE SEED..IF YOU CAN UPHOLD THEIR WHOLENESS, WHICH MEANS YOU HAVE TO HEAL YOUR BROKENNESS, YOU WILL LIBERATE YOUR CHILDREN”.. When I first heard this quote I had to roll it around my head a while, since I am not used to havingContinue reading “Healing the Family Tree”

The Invisible Grief & Loss Of Adoption

I never once was taught from the early age of my adoption how to mourn & grieve my first initial loss that ended up effecting my entire life. I think because we are babies, the world around us was incapable of understanding the dynamics of this replacement mother/baby switch, believing we as children didn’t have anything to grieve.  Adoptees are looked upon as a blessing in someones else’s life, while our own personal trauma from it goes unnoticed, ignored or dismissed, acting as if this loss never happened to us.