Who Are You After Your Children Grow Up?

What becomes of this woman or person who built their kingdom around the role they naturally embodied with their children? Who are they in the absence of their offspring that are now off to become independent sovereignties all of their own. What will happen to the person who is no longer needed for every day things that once gave them meaning and value? Where is that person now who once had the natural skill set to pull off fundraising and social activities that they volunteered for, having natural business minded abilities driven and focused within the home and school? Are you ready to TRANSFORM yourself for the next phase of your life?

2+0+2+2= 6 The Year Of The Lovers

This past year has been quite the year for me personally with my family & collectively as a whole planet, watching mankind in my opinion become more divided than ever. Ironically in the tarot deck using numerology the numbers for last year equated to the year of the Hierophant (5), who’s universal energy is equatedContinue reading “2+0+2+2= 6 The Year Of The Lovers”

The Universe Has Its Own Software Updates

I used to only consider the things that happened to me in situations that were “beyond” my control as major set backs or disruptions, unconsiously personalizing the emotions that lead to me feeling like my entire world collapsing all around me. The truth was, my nervous system was so out of wack from my upbringingContinue reading “The Universe Has Its Own Software Updates”

The (Un) Fun Of Divorce

I can remember the love hate relationship I had with parenting that no one really openly talks about, even more so during difficult times of separation, division of family or when divorcing a narcissist. Most people want to save face portraying an ideology that every thing is “great” with raising children, hiding behind their own faceContinue reading “The (Un) Fun Of Divorce”

Self Empowerment

What I realized during some of these long over due evaluations of connections was that I was my own form of toxic poisoning to my well being, thoughts & beliefs.  I had for years consumed the tainted koolaid that was served from a narcissistic parent that I thought was a refreshment, distorting my entire truth of self beliefs.  I found a way during my later years in healing to forgive myself & that abused little girl inside that simply didn’t know any better or differently.

The NON Father’s Day

I haven’t celebrated fathers day in over 7 years now when my former father decided it was more important to keep his friendship with my ex husband than it was having a relationship with his daughter.  I was once very close to my dad growing up (my former mother despised our bond), idolizing his statureContinue reading “The NON Father’s Day”

The Shame Of Weight

I grew up in a home where the scale for ones body weight was a solid fixture in the upstairs hallway.  For years as a child I would watch my former weight obsessed mother step onto her throne that was her scale, hoping for a number that she could happily live with.  This self abusiveContinue reading “The Shame Of Weight”

The Birth Of The Legendary Phoenix

There are usually specific times in our lives that call upon us to participate in some epic shit created by the universe, usually when we are not feeling so incredibly outstanding.  Many times we see & view these moments as more of a personal assassination when we are at the lowest points in our life, challengingContinue reading “The Birth Of The Legendary Phoenix”

The (UN)Mothers Of This Day

I was at the post office dropping off a parcel for a customer & the woman who always rings me up wished me a Happy Mothers day as we finished the transaction.  I was walking away thanking her & quickly turned back around to ask if she herself was a mom, because truthfully you neverContinue reading “The (UN)Mothers Of This Day”

The Emotional Truth About Adoptees Grief & Invisible Loss

Being adopted, I’ve noticed in general we are hardly ever taught how to openly properly mourn & grieve our first greatest initial loss, that ends up dictating & effecting our entire emotional life afterwards.  Human emotions are built in stages during infancy, childhood & adolescence registering & governing the emotional information into our adulthood.  ThisContinue reading “The Emotional Truth About Adoptees Grief & Invisible Loss”