The Human Spirit Is The Most Remarkable Warrior

*REPOST* 2016

I became aware of a new word the other day that I had truly never heard before, making so much more sense to my already visual picture of the Narcissist.  I used to believe I was going crazy, based on the personal fictious experiences I was subjected to of being a pawn in peoples constant game of chess.  It wasn’t until I was enlightened with this new term GASLIGHTING that I began to put all the pieces of the puzzle together, feeling the emotional residue of abuse I once had to endure.

Sometimes we find ourselves in all sorts of different types of relationships with people who use their charm & charisma to entice you into their web of deceit.  They start out by love bombing you in the beginning,  pumping you up with empty feelings of words that trigger your emotions so they can act out the story to hook you in.  Slowly they begin to callously use this love for manipulation, confusion & distortion as a weapon of emotional destruction & control.Continue reading “The Human Spirit Is The Most Remarkable Warrior”

When Spirit Shows Up For You.

Sometimes life grants us the opportunity to dip our self into the other world of the unknown, opening the space of your intuitive energy with snidbits of information as a sensory gateway to your past, present & future communication.  It has the ability to share messages of possibilities & ideas, allowing one to feel, see, hear, taste or smell its presence of energetic matter appearing in capacities to which we can digest the information to our specific benefit intuitionally.

I believe we are all surrounded by “energetic possibilities” that often times can show up physically as simple as a shiver down the spine to get our attention.  As ego driven humans, we often times dismiss this profound experience out of fear of the unexplained & its unidentified sensation, passing it off to something else instead.  Energies are transmitted through different frequencies waves that are linked with the vibration of the divine universe, allowing us to access & connect with the spirit world. Continue reading “When Spirit Shows Up For You.”

Life After Narcissistic Abuse

I had an epiphany yesterday after celebrating my husbands 42 birthday this past weekend. I realized in that singular moment of pure happiness that if those various suicide attempts I had tried way back when would have taken my life, I wouldn’t have be able to be where I am today.  I would have missed out on such a beautiful life outside of that pain, enjoying the feeling of profound emotions while experiencing this life with my family the way I dreamt of it to be.  

It wasn’t an easy road to get to this place where I am today,  having a life after narcissistic abuse but it never is when your committed to recovery & healing.  I had to destroy all of the beliefs that were instrumental in the pollution of my mental & emotional body that I suffered from my early childhood that I took with me unknowingly into my adulthood.  This narcissistic abuse once contaminated me down to the basics of my beautiful existence, stripping me away from the light that I am. 

Who I am today isn’t a reflection of how I was raised, yet how I chose to heal what I survived, detaching me from the ties that once bound me to this trauma.  I did the unthinkable & decided to use this power of my own beautiful love as growth,  instead of remaining small in the idea of remaining a victim to the punishable crimes that were once committed to my psyche & never accounted for.

Looking back from where I am today, it was that traumatized child within that choose many of the experiences I endured for its pain that I knew rather than that kind of love that I didn’t.  What I realized during my years in healing is that trauma will continue to manifest & torment you in ways beyond your control when they go uncared for, showing up in a variety of ways to feed your own oppressor that was created by the experiences within.  

I think from a higher being perspective understanding, these lessons were for my greater unconscious purpose, forcing me to be who & where I am today which is a most beautiful place to be.  I can with all my senses feel the riches of my healing wealth while enjoying the true fruits of this labor of self love & care.  It is because of that, that this can exist, reaping in all the extraordinary benefits that comes when you begin to peel & shed all those past layers.  

Sometimes, it is in those small reflective moments of pure alignment & knowing, you get a glimpse of the intended meaning behind a past event & why it was so important that you somehow managed to survive that day.  Peace Love Faith Hope <3 <3 <3   



The Unexpected Goodbyes Of Pandemic 2020

A little & A lot has happened over quarantine these last few months, taking my flow of emotions from one place to another without apology or remorse since that’s the way life rolls.   Instead I decided to become more vigilant to find the beauty in this unexpected event knowing that what was before, will no longer be again, opening the space for all of us to evolve.   It reminds me that no matter how far you think you have come in life, there will always be a crazy turn of events that will shake your foundation, spitting you out into the next act in your life.  How you land it is completely up to you.

My husband & I said goodbye to our oldest daughter this morning.  She decided a few weeks ago to pack up her entire life from our lower level which now is bare & empty into her car & move out of state.  It was time for a life change,  spreading her wings for flight as she drives to Florida for warmer brighter days.  I don’t believe she would have ever pulled the trigger if this pandemic wouldn’t have happened, creating in all honesty, a super charge of energy that is either going to force your drive or stall you out.  This kid decided to hit the gas instead, while so many of us are still stuck in neutral.

Since my day job as a manicurist was abruptly put on hold due to the pandemic, I decided it was time to begin identifing myself as a jewelry designer instead, specializing in the healing arts.  What I once was only capable of seeing as a hobby I now believe is my full time gig, feeling so creative & purposeful in this new place.  This pandemic shut down unintentionally broken down all the beliefs I had about my self, my job, my work & the false ideas that were limiting my growth.

What dawned on me during this lockdown is that I would have never had the courage to “stop” working as a manicurist on my own accord.  The universe however managed to conspired against me, showing me that this crippling fear of surrender had been more powerful in my head, than the actual act of me letting go.  All the stories I had made up about me not doing nails anymore, never once showed up in the last 9 weeks of this no work uncertainty, debunking all the myths i created first hand into leverage truths while I sit at home.  Where I go from here will be out of truth & no longer out of fear.

I think we as people create stories to keep ourselves small, contained & comfortable, relying on a fear of the unknown to dictate our own personal beliefs.  We naively live in this state until the eruption is more powerful that we bargained for, clearing the air so to speak  Sometimes the super natural force of life comes as a way to offset this mentality & awaken the human spirit once again for its personal evolution & the will to grow, prosper & live in the natural alignment of ones own self.

The world will continue to live, move, shift, arrange, leaving nothing to be permanent or for granted.  Where you go from here is entirely up to you & lets be clear it has never been normal from the get go.  Discover the opportunity of reinvention instead of this idea for a new kind of normal which across the board will never cease to truly exist & only remain to keep you small.    May the flight of life continue to inspire, encourage & illuminate all walks of life.  Peace Love Faith Hope <3 <3 <3






The Angry Entertainment Of Corona

Theres been a lot of what I call Corona Angry Entertainment during this lockdown, now actively unfollowing & choosing to socially distance my self even more so from most of the shit show network & social media nonsense.  I decided for my own pursuit of optimism & happiness, to check out from the outlets that act like a peacock know it all complex, especially when it turns arrogant with fighting words as a way to impose a control of will onto others in all spectrums of this situation.  

Then there are the corona angry entertainers who act like experts on the subject, going into full blown temper tantrums when the expression of their ideas, beliefs & opinions are being opposed by another.  Its turned into a playground of personal agenda bullies, that in truth, has very little to do with anything except the elevated power trip to feel better than the next Elmer Fudd who thinks they know everything too.  

The media has been brilliantly tactical in stuffing us to information obesity that it has made so many people crazy, afraid, mad & angry.  We are being over fed with the medias toxic nutrients that like that of processed food, will take a toll on our overall psyche.  It makes me wonder if we are we being hypnotized through these media platforms as a way to control & manipulate the general population in hopes of gaining such chaotic responses.   Just a thought.  

My past unhealed traumatized self would have gladly participated, joyfully in some of the needless rants of threads I have seen, wanting my egotistical opinion to be heard.  Now I just declined to react, because truthfully I don’t need to argue, defend or validate my own beliefs, nor need to try & force my will on others in hopes of changing theirs.  What I have learned in my personal healing with the trauma that I have survived is that not every situation, comment or remark deserves or requires my response, especially when your no longer triggered by the playground of its audience.   Peace Love Faith Hope <3 <3 <3

The Insightful Perk In My Quarantine.

Ive had a LOT of time at home during this pandemic lockdown, going on 7 weeks of not being aloud to work & still seeing some of the optimism behind all of it.  It has been work for me to unwind the minds perception of this horrible, draining situation as I constantly remind myself that eventually this too shall pass.  I rebuilt myself over the last 15 years to accommodate & survive things that I personally cant control on my own, leaning into the flow of this universal course instead.

I have enlisted as a form of internal healthy vibration a daily morning mantra, using the Diamoku Nam Myoho Renge Kyo, also know as The Lotus Sutra, in hopes of sending out my vibration with its positive action for good causes.  I stumbled upon it by listening to a lecture that spoke of the benefits of doing such, so I figured WHY NOT, I have nothing to loose & only abundance to gain by it.   

This mantra has also given me some enthusiasm in creating a line of Malas, MagicalMaven Prayer Beads, for my online shop @ I think there is something really beautiful about this sacred talisman & the action of intention while using them.  I just ordered more beads to accommodate this inspiration that came of my having to stay home, since we are now extended to the end of May.

As a self employed manicurist for the last 23 years I haven’t ever really had the time to grow out my own nails, maintaining them short for work purpose.  I cant stop looking at how beautiful they have become, while loving the sound of them clicking on the keyboard as I type.  With all the harsh chemical & solutions that I work with, my hands are thanking me as they recover from the years of abuse that I have put them through.  This is  has been a huge perk of the quarantine.

People have continue to randomly checked in on my husband & I, knowing we are without our incomes as we are both self employed in client/ patient business.  Some calls came from the least expected, making sure we are able to provide for ourselves & to see if we needed anything.  This pandemic time has made me value some things that I might have taken for granted & for this I am grateful that we are surrounded by some really good, kind, thoughtful loving people.  Thank you <3

Time has been of no real value to me now gaging the suns position for the time of day, freeing my wrist that accommodated my watch 24 hours a day since I was a teenager.  I have realized nothing will really happen to me if I surrender this addiction to time & management, setting free & releasing this idea, notion & need that ended up being a learned behavior & not one I need to maintain like I once felt I used to have too.

I think there are some very beautiful things that are going to be coming out of this worldly predicament, if you can allow yourself to see past the obvious & extend your preifereal vision.  Sometimes we are granted by Mother Earth a way to reinstate our physical, spiritual, monetary value, worth & time, awakening us up as a collective whole in the human species if we are able to pay attention.  While the Earth is recovering & healing from our despicable humanely ways, will we is the question, be able one day as a specie to do the same.  Peace Love Faith Hope












Magical Mala’s & Prayer Necklaces coming soon.

fullsizeoutput_d0fI have been really trying hard to use my isolation brain power that is often creative, constructing ways to spread some healing vibes in these unprecedented times.  It’s been hard, firing up these neurons that are now somewhat lagging from too much screen time (Im addicted to TIK TOK), while sitting within the 4 corners of our home in a timeless manner, because it’s still too FUCKING COLD (32 degrees & snowing) to be outside in MICHIGAN. 

I decided play around & try my hand at a Crystal Healing Mala necklaces since I got the time on my hand, trying to find where it will lead me once we are aloud back out of the confine of this quarantine.  I think that there is something really beautiful with these prayer beads & the intention that is set with them.  I think in these unprecedented times, healing is an essential ingredient in the story of our own hero’s journey, taking these darker moment in time & using it to discover who you are beyond the confine & conditions of your life.

I continue to shed, rise & live each day out to the best I can with grace in this life algorithm of what the universe is serving at the moment, reminding myself that this is just a temporary moment before the wheel of fortune card shifts in this energy once again.  This is the time to really go within & find the bliss that has been lost to everyday programming & use it to its advantage of finding the call of your own true spirit.  Peace Love Faith Hope

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I got to see the sun again this morning ( HOORAY ), which is a good thing being that we are quarantined in Michigan.  I just witnessed my 3rd full week of no incoming income go by as an independent, self employed, contractor manicurist so that’s been fun.  The struggle is REAL for me, for you, for everyone really, yet I still choose every day to show up for my life dressed like I have somewhere to be.  I don’t want the universe to misunderstand my vibration so for me, getting dressed in street clothes, doing my hair & putting on some pretty lipstick is sending the vibes that I’m still here, present & ready to go.

Ironically during this 3 week lull, I have read a few books that have reminded me that happiness is a choice, even within the most obscure circumstance.  So yesterday I chose a dance party & did Zumba as my form of movement because I can see the effects of this quarantine taking a toll on my energetic body leaving me to feel heavy at times.  Energy attracts like energy & I want to continue to attract whatever the universe is offering regardless of what Mother Earth is currently doing. She is respectfully in charge of taking care of her planet, just like I am responsibly in charge of taking care of my own circumference.Continue reading “WEEK 3 OF QUARANTINE”

Do it your self manicure tutorial

I have had a few of my clients reach out to me during this isolation period, expressing to me how much they miss their time with me & their manicures.  So I decided to make this tutorial to show people some easy steps at getting a pretty good home manicure from yourself.






I decided to hop on the beautiful band wagon of generosity that is blowing up all around the world in lieu of the 2020 CORONAVIRUS & do a FREE TAROT READING GIVEAWAY on my INSTAGRAM page (find me at MAGICALMAVEN2). 30 minute card reading valued at $55.00. * NO PURCHASE NECESSARY

It’s really easy to enter & you can enter to win as many times as you would like.  I hope this cultivates more inspiration for others to get on board, offering up something back in hopes of threading the world back together with love, generosity, kindness, hope & togetherness.




  1. Go to instagram & follow me ( MAGICALMAVEN2)
  2. Like the Tarot Giveaway post
  3. Tag 3 people you think could use a reading
  4. Share the post to your story
  5. Tell me what you doing at home to pass the time.

I will announce the lucky winner during a LIVE Instagram post on Thursday March 26 at 4pm eastern time.  The winner will be hand picked out of a Tibet bowl.  GOOD LUCK.

In the meantime, stay healthy, try to remain hopeful, get some fresh air when you can & remember this too shall pass. PEACE LOVE FAITH HOPE <3 <3 <3



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