The Relentless Loop Of Fear

Have you ever had one of those relationships (physically, spiritually, emotionally) with something or someone that you feel you need to hold onto for dear life with in order to maintain its connection.  You cling tightly to this relationship even though you known in the deepest parts of your brain & soul that it’s unhealthy for you, too stubborn & afraid to let it go.

Sometimes we tend to maintain these physical or energetic connections out of fear, being too afraid to find out what would become of them if we missed out & walked away.  Even worse many time, we create the storyline inside our mind about the possibility of someone else stepping in & doing it better than we ever did. OR that in our absence, life went on. This is the loop that becomes the chain to its unbreakable pattern of its toxic disfunction.

Often times we can invest so much of our time in watering all the metaphorical containers with our emotions & feelings that unknowingly have tiny little holes, never allowing its nutrients to take shape or form.  There is a developed mechanism in our psyche that while functioning in harmony & balance, connects the 3 dimensions of self that allows for us to recognize its signaling behavior when it’s time to contemplate a problem.  The Brain, The Heart & The Gut.

As a form of coping we will begin to normalize what would otherwise be questioned as what is wrong,  instead of ever being able to see what it is you can subtract in order to feel better.  Usually when we are driven from a place of fear, our momentum in doing so will also come from a place of negativity, whether we are conscious of it or not.

This perpetual behavior breeds an unhealthy residue of film over the ability to see things clearly, jeopardizing the onset of something healthy coming into play.  Instead, the experience in ones life becomes replicated over & over again to subsidize the currency of fear created in the first place, finding discord in anything or everything around you.

Sometimes being fired from that job you hated was the best solution to the question you could never allow yourself to answer.  Or getting dumped by a friend or intimate partner who you truthfully didn’t want to spend time with or be with any more in the end, ended up doing you a favor that you wouldn’t have never done for yourself nor them for that matter.  I have personally felt almost an emotional assault on my intimate self when my most favorite lipstick became discontinued, forcing me to reinvent something I wasn’t prepared to do.

It’s the trauma of an unhealed self that will begin to tear into the wounded tissue of past & present, creating a tidy storyline that is based on its remembering self that felt traumatized.  This begins to fuel the body blood supply with fear based adrenaline, designing a perfect storm in the making.  It goes deeper than the currant situation, triggering a series of feelings that have been asleep & not dealt with, EVER.

Why do people always want to fix the things that aren’t really broken but will never work on fixing the things that are falling apart in the meantime.  Failure is an expression that has so much negative condonation attached to it as if it is awful thing instead of seeing it for its opportunity.  I technically failed at 2 prior marriages,  yet managed to correct the things I learned were the problem.  By choosing differently the third time, I succeeded & am now happily married for 10 years.  Failure can lead us to correction & calculations that allow for the ability of change & growth.

Many times people over stay a welcome anywhere, even in the residence of fear.  Without even realizing, life sends us signals & signs as a favor for us by listening to the quiet silent prays of our hearts that the voice in the throat it too afraid to speak.  Ultimately, life will naturally detach itself from the things that are no longer attached to us.  This is the action & currency of energy with or without the emotional attachment to fear.  Peace Love Faith Hope <3 <3 <3

Updated Repost March 1018