Ive been scrutinized in the past for publicly speaking about what some might deem as airing my “dirty laundry”, exposing some deep dark layers from my own experienced truth. Some would even go as far to say that it never happened, playing ignorant as a deflective tool to eliminate the circumstance & experiences. The dynamics of this family history alone, before I ever came adopted into the picture, speaks naturally for itself. Secrets make us sick, generating a lineage of dis ease that gets passed on to each & every family member who participates, knowingly & unknowingly.
I believe part of the reason why I finally have my shit together & was able to properly do the healing is that I’m no longer hiding in the shadow of the secrets that have plagued this family for generations. By bringing my own story to light, I set free the darker secrets I held in the mental dungeon of my mind out of fear that had continued to harm my over all being. This also gave a powerful energetic healing flow to my children & my children’s children to energetically shift the dynamics of this once toxic inheritance a healing healthy future.
We come into the world naturally uncultivated, pure & instantly programed with a families own code of ethics & morals. Sometimes as children we are not allowed to question these systems that are already in place, allowing us only to be seen & not heard. We are instructed to behave within this structure of dynamics not knowing any differently until we begin to engage in the outside world for ourselves, seeing an array of different experiences, circumstances & upbringings.
What I know now is that I was raised in the home with a narcissistic adopted mother who’s own personal human truth compass of ethics & morals was distorted & exaggerated from her own personal trauma & upbringing. When you begin to heal the facets to your own unique history, you automatically bring forth the light that generates a positive light bulb effect outlook destroying the ideas & beliefs that was previously limiting. This allows for the rebuilding of a healthier life that is plentiful & abundant by changing the narrative & shifting the viewpoints that better suite you.
Historically we have witnessed these types of behaviors that have been a huge reoccurring human conditioning theme, down to its original generational roots unaware of its harmful wrong doings. Many people even today are oblivious & or blinded as a tool of convenience, not wanting to ruffle any feathers to see its painful truth. We all carry to some degree the burden of our own storage locker of secrets that stay dormant, which when triggered becomes disguised & translated into physical aliments or expressive angry negative feelings. Hurt people, hurt people.
I believe we are in a loop of a human social experience with an explosion of unhealed childhood trauma continually showing up in the adult division of the world, raising their own offspring in the same manner. Now a days, it feels very over populated with fear & anger, deliberately bating you into its own agenda & narrative. There are so many hateful used tactics in order to harness its credibility & dismantle the minds ability to naturally & instictively think for its self. Stupidity has become a social norm disease, that leaves us socially deficient in the end, creating space while filling in the gaps with a false sense of stability & reality as a cover.
What i have learned from my own personal experiences is that sometimes the beliefs we believe to be certainties, come from the distorted interpretations that have been passed onto to you. Find ways to generate your own personal narrative of principles & beliefs for healing & alignment. Only once we are able to master our own source of self sustaining healing, can we begin to naturally influence the world around us with love, kindness & unification. Peace Love Faith Hope <3 <3 <3
Repost From July 2017