A little & A lot has happened over quarantine these last few months, taking my flow of emotions from one place to another without apology or remorse since that’s the way life rolls. Instead I decided to become more vigilant to find the beauty in this unexpected event knowing that what was before, will no longer be again, opening the space for all of us to evolve. It reminds me that no matter how far you think you have come in life, there will always be a crazy turn of events that will shake your foundation, spitting you out into the next act in your life. How you land it is completely up to you.
My husband & I said goodbye to our oldest daughter this morning. She decided a few weeks ago to pack up her entire life from our lower level which now is bare & empty into her car & move out of state. It was time for a life change, spreading her wings for flight as she drives to Florida for warmer brighter days. I don’t believe she would have ever pulled the trigger if this pandemic wouldn’t have happened, creating in all honesty, a super charge of energy that is either going to force your drive or stall you out. This kid decided to hit the gas instead, while so many of us are still stuck in neutral.
Since my day job as a manicurist was abruptly put on hold due to the pandemic, I decided it was time to begin identifing myself as a jewelry designer instead, specializing in the healing arts. What I once was only capable of seeing as a hobby I now believe is my full time gig, feeling so creative & purposeful in this new place. This pandemic shut down unintentionally broken down all the beliefs I had about my self, my job, my work & the false ideas that were limiting my growth.
What dawned on me during this lockdown is that I would have never had the courage to “stop” working as a manicurist on my own accord. The universe however managed to conspired against me, showing me that this crippling fear of surrender had been more powerful in my head, than the actual act of me letting go. All the stories I had made up about me not doing nails anymore, never once showed up in the last 9 weeks of this no work uncertainty, debunking all the myths i created first hand into leverage truths while I sit at home. Where I go from here will be out of truth & no longer out of fear.
I think we as people create stories to keep ourselves small, contained & comfortable, relying on a fear of the unknown to dictate our own personal beliefs. We naively live in this state until the eruption is more powerful that we bargained for, clearing the air so to speak Sometimes the super natural force of life comes as a way to offset this mentality & awaken the human spirit once again for its personal evolution & the will to grow, prosper & live in the natural alignment of ones own self.
The world will continue to live, move, shift, arrange, leaving nothing to be permanent or for granted. Where you go from here is entirely up to you & lets be clear it has never been normal from the get go. Discover the opportunity of reinvention instead of this idea for a new kind of normal which across the board will never cease to truly exist & only remain to keep you small. May the flight of life continue to inspire, encourage & illuminate all walks of life. Peace Love Faith Hope <3 <3 <3