My 40 year decade is now coming to its official closing ceremony as I hit the 50 mark tomorrow, which I have to say I’m beyond thrilled about. These last 10 years have given me more lessons, wisdom and gifts ( which while going through let’s be honest at times I could never understand ) that I am now thoroughly enjoying and seeing the beautiful brighter picture of why it all went down the way it did.
You see, I have become affectively powerfully resilient because of these times pushing me to work through and heal so much of my own fucking crap so I could land and wind up on the other side of the equation aligning me (us) to be where I am today. Im using all that I have gained in the most effective way possible, allowing for me to personally and professionally grow so I can create and be an inspiration to others (especially my daughters).
This is the decade of me finally REALLY feeling good enough in my own skin, worthy enough in my soul, safe enough in my spirit, nurtured and adored to be as vulnerable as I can, so I can begin to really live (no longer survive) the life we (my husband and i) have spent the last 9 years co creating together. Everything that has gone into this last decade metaphorically was along the lines of picking, choosing, tasting and trying out different types of ingredients for the recipe of our life which is truly rich, colorful, plentiful, and beautiful.
Turning 50 is a gift. A blessing. A leg up on life. I want to evolve and grow into that strong goddess elder role that other females can turn to for knowledge and wisdom that I personally sought out because I didn’t have for my self. This is the generosity of the illuminate spirit that was payed forward and gifted to me (that I will continue) by some really beautiful wise woman I admire and cherish.
To me, 50 is old enough to now know yourself in the most sacred magical way and not give a fuck to those who cant see this value and worth, wise enough to know better, and still young enough to fucking enjoy all the aspects of ones life and more. For this wisdom I am truly blessed and grateful. Thank you to my husband, my daughters, my tribal circle of sacred soul of family & friends and healers who got me here, I lift my sacred grail of black magic brew to you all. LE CHAM SALUTE.
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