I took a gamble and applied for a freelance writing content job on crystals last week, receiving the rejection letter in my email yesterday morning..The valuable thing about this momentary experience is that it got me thinking about all my faceted angles in life right now and what exactly I plan on doing with my crystal/reiki/healing thing that I currently have simmering on a back burner..
The idea of writing has always been a factor I have toyed with in my head for many years, leading me up to apply for something I might have felt was out of me league..I need to be done operating from the mindset at this level of feeling that every thing I desire is out of my reach and not mine for the taking..These small little steps I’m doing at reaching out for the things I want is really just a muscle exercise I’m willing to begin as a regimen to elevate my purpose and passion..
This new found attitude and swag I’m choosing to carry got me thinking about my hair and the energy it holds from years ago..lately, when I look in the mirror, my hair is the one thing that wasn’t radiating for me energetically anymore (it was mid back length)..I felt the weight of my past just hanging out on my shoulders and its luster for life gone and finished..
Yesterday I decided (along with my new attitude) to chop off some hair that was no longer server my prettier purpose. I actually felt for some time now the idea of it was holding me back and using it to define and hide behind for the last 10 years..Today I decided was the day to face that fear of what would happen if I tested that belief, and let go of the hair that was just was there as comfort and taking up space..
Today, I don’t have buyers remorse and feel so free and healthy in my shorter long angled bob hair cut that I can say really for the first time I feel the absolute effects physically of my healing..The work I have been doing for the last few years I can see in the image of self when I look in the mirror and it feels really good..
I think out of fear, we hold onto things that solely offer us a false sense of comfort in their tattered form that we simply cant let go of out of nostalgia..Sometimes it is these specific things that continue to manifest again past behaviors in your currant state of affairs that no longer serve you and simply hold you down making it nearly impossible to move forward..
It is in this moment of freedom where the greatest form of healing happens when you can just allow yourself to let go..peace love faith hope <3 <3 <3