Have you ever found yourself at a point in life when your ready to make the ultimate change but find yourself frozen with fear instead..i find myself spinning my wheels in all sorts of emotional trepidations rather than going out there and grabbing ahold of this energy by its horns so to speak and using it to propel me instead..
How many of you can relate to this type of behavior if your being honest with your self right about now? its a safe space, to allow yourself to think about that question because its just a blog, your behind a screen and nobody knows what your really thinking behind a glare..
Im sure if you began to peal off a couple of layers from the outer extremities that we all hide behind at times, a larger truth would appear in the for front of your intuitive mind..this is where the greatest exposure gets uncomfortable reverting us back into the old wounds that keep is small purposely out of unhealed habitual behavior..
I ask myself this all the time what am I exactly afraid of that continues to hold me back..its actually the last part of me that has become the hardest to reprogram and heal because the download was so cryptic with language that I have had to learn a whole new way to communicate with myself in order to reboot my entire self vocabulary system..
If I were to close my eyes and describe to you how I feel right now it would be me standing in a glow of golden sunbeam with an array of energy swirling around me in the most magnificent way..i can feel it want to reach outward to create connections while aiding in the healing of the human spirit in some sort of capacity..
I have been creating my own version of a craft for some time now, spending time with myself inside and outdoors in order to create this beautiful vessel for source to move through me..there is nothing worse in my opinion than the portrayal of a healer in a most contaminated self who has not done or continue in doing the work for themselves first..(just my observation and professional opinion for what it is worth)
This means digging in deep and finding your own power of love in the most hideous places you’ve been, and cultivating a way to use its energy as your ally..it means stepping into the heat of the fire you have been burnt in metaphorically and finding a way to allow the channel of its energy a way to power up and illuminate its own healing beam of light..
It requires of you to feel this earth as it is in its entirety, in a way that is raw and organic and powerfully truthful while rooting you to the foundations to which you begin your own personal practice while being universally supported..knowing all this intuitively and yet I am still find myself unable to gain the courage and forge forward..
You see, like you, I have survived some dramatic traumatic heavy deep dark shit with the old handbook text guide of passed down family historical beliefs and reasons that were suggested to me through my entire childhood of why I shouldn’t, couldn’t, cant, not aloud, and foolish if I even tried..
Your work is never done and if you think a couple pep talks with friends that blow smoke up your ass is the answer, you are royally wrong..its an act of deep discipline that is cruetial to your deprogramming and rebooting all the other things that weave into play..it requires of you to become the most courageous version of your self that will lead you out and take you to a place you dream to be..
I cast my wishing stone into the pond of possibilities, rippling the effect by rubbing off my wholesome energy of spirit onto others wishing to make some of the most profound beautiful changes one wishes to make..see you at the other side..peace love faith hope <3 <3 <3