Ive spent the last 10 years openly writing about some emotionally charged topics most people cant, wont, are too scared, in denial to ever talk about..it started as an outlet for me to purge the grotesqueness that I had felt offering me a healthy way to bring to the surface a truth that I am no longer ashamed or afraid to speak about..
I gave myself this gift of permission to tell my own story of survival and how I had to give my self the acceptance to heal..you must decided to put your self first and not worry about what all the haters are going to say and do..they will play dirty with hopes of destroying you and will even stoop to lows with your kids in hopes of manipulating them against you (another form of abuse)..TRUE STORY
Any time you decide to put yourself out there, you run into the vast lands of vulnerability good, bad and or indifferent opening yourself up to exposer of critique and criticism..i have discovered that there are more people who identify with my blogs offering them a little bit of hope in the isolation of shame, shedding light on subjects that need to be talked about..
Its a natural feeling to not want to deal with your shit, neatly sweeping it under the carpet making the show room in your living room of life one fat problem of denial..you see, many people maintain a persona that is the designed opposite of what they hide purposely to derail you from knowing and seeing its utter truth..
If you could get a glimpse into the secret compartment of storage that housed all these thoughts, feelings, ideas, experiences, shame, guilt and abuse, you would see that they are wounded and hurt, suffering in pain (physical, emotional, spiritual) that is masked by whatever their “cocktail of deceit is” ..it is a façade, that at times they don’t even realize, that as long as the cover is veiled, their story is sealed tight..
I guess you could call me the whistle blowers to the atrocities that happened in the dynamics of a fucked up family..
Imagine the audacity at one of the holiest holidays of the Jewish religion (rosh hashana) to still be consumed about what Im doing, while using this platform with my ex in law/family to talk smack about me at their dinner table to MY own children in hopes of smearing my character and manipulating them against me..that is a FORM OF ABUSE YOU FUCKING IDIDOTS>>
Im blowing the whistle TOOOOT TOOOOOOOT, until people learn its not ok to deliberately try hurt other people (MY CHILDREN) from the pain, anguish and patheticness of their own state of being..stop being a coward and find a way to face your truth, or stop trying to purposely hurt the people left for you to love and focus on that! peace love faith hope <3 <3 <3