I have taken a hiatus from a couple of “brands” lately that I had been overly devoted to for long periods of extended amounts of over time..i found myself instead becoming loyal to the company regardless of not being able to deliver exactly what I was looking for, letting the brand name become bigger and more important than me unfortunately..
I do that a lot to a fault actually, looking back in my past recognizing the holding pattern of ties I have connected too making it hard to let go of even when its run its course..i have seen myself try to squeeze the last bit of experience out of something that has crucially nothing left to give me, simply out of not wanting for it to be “over”..like my last cigarette a week and a half ago..just saying..
the emotional attachments in relationships that we tend to make, when we make them surrounding our underlining fear, will always gain the best of us taking us farther away from our unspoken truth silencing the very best of us..i have seen it in my physical relationships with people that I essentially had to embarrassingly enough have BEG to stay with me..how pathetic and unattractive is that, having to beg someone you love, to love you enough to want to choose to stay with you..
I chose instead to love my self MORE and continue to walk the path in my own world of unconditional love, peace, serenity sprinkled with a purity nobody would be able to damage or taint any more..this decision has effected other areas in my life, giving me the courage to expand my horizon and world offering me the sight to see farther and farther away that had once limited me..
there is something beautiful that happens when you allow yourself to step into your own grace without apologizing for becoming true to yourself..i have learned its ok to disappoint others when it comes to saving yourself in the meantime..there is no selfish shame in making you a number one priority when the investment in any relationship is not fulfilling the requirements that you need and desire..
life is funny though, my work out pants that I loved from athleta were discontinued and again challenged me to simply honor my self and not the loyalty to a brand..so the other day I was out shopping with my daughter and found ourselves inside lululemon with her encouraging me to give it another go and try on a pair..low and behold to my surprise I walked out with 2 new pairs of crops that are ass approved by my beloved husband and better than the ones I had before! peace love faith hope❤️❤️❤️