I used to subscribe to the belief that the appearance of negative things happening to me that were out of my control, were essentially going to end up taking me down and destroying me..in truth for a temporary moment they sure as hell felt like it, believing i was having an emotional temporary bodyquake breakdown..the truth was, all the happened shit has brought me to a places of transformation..
there is nothing worse than feeling unprepared as the environment around you begins to change, shifting into unoccupied territories of emotions with mental limiting thoughts..most times we are not in charge of what is happening around us (that is a learned illusion) and are basically being tested on our response from the outside forces..failing is the only way you are open enough to learn hopefully, encouraging the innate idea of personal assentation..
there is only so much blame you can place on someone else (get over yourself) or situations that you are not willing to get dressed in and assume for yourself..i used to think that the universe was out to get me by constantly giving me the same lessons with different characters over and over again, not ever looking at the reflection of mirrors being held back at me..once you understand the method of acknowledgement your journey to higher understanding begins.
one day for some strange reason I wasn’t so afraid anymore and simply released the control I believed I had, which in reality none of us have..i was in a position of being able to pay closer attention to the messages being transmitted that I once had conveniently ignored and began to step in confidently..i let divine guidance take over and guide me through storms i would have taken my own life in while trying to achieve being unattached..
I think most people view change as something negative, rightfully so..i hate everything about change even though i became good at it and have created a life so habitual and ritual its slightly abnormal out of fear and the feeling i have of instability..i am a work in progress and am however when the magic is right, the type of person who will out of no where challenge the internal belief and take the greatest leap of faith known to man..
i really do believe that some of our major shit is meant to happen FOR US instead of how we perceive it as happening TO US ,for our own greater good forcing us to relax and adjust..we’ve become so sedentary by default that we are lazy, taking everything for granted having no appreciation for its actual presence limiting our experiences and growth..
our culture has conveniently made it so easy to control us using over processing techniques that mechanically engineer our mind body and spirit..we have become sedative and sluggish using our food, medications, media to deliberately alter and effect us to operate at much lower vibration than what we are capable of in hopes of keeping our species small..
some times there is a major catalyst in TRYING TO WAKE US UP because the memo that had been given prior has expired and is now needing to gain our attention in another way with shock value..the souls principal to evolution is understanding the mysteries of the universe, aligning with its sacred energies while gaining awareness of its bigger picture of transformational wisdom..
next time you begin to notice your life unravelling around you, instead of trying as hard as you can to not let shit happen while focusing and trying to keep your life looking so neat and tidy..lean into the experience and allow for shit to take place so you can learn and grow from the experience..emotionally develop yourself to be open and present, instead of stunting your growth and preventing yourself from ever healing which is a natural progression in our human development..peace love faith hope <3