its that time again in the Jewish religion, which requires of us to purge our most inner and outer sins asking for forgiveness while we repent and seek anointment in order to seal our fate for the upcoming year in the book of life..i believe it sincerely requires of one to truly reflect in a most raw and honest way, the opportunity to cleanse ones soul, purifying and releasing the dis ease that is created from not living true to its genuine state of being..
this personal work that is required on Yom Kippur between you and your creator is probably the most difficult of rituals, asking of us, to ask of ourselves if we are up to the task to admitting our flaws ( our most intimate flaws) and negative behavior seeking responsibility without deflecting, taking full on ownership..it asks of us to rise to the highest form of our attachment and let go releasing ones self from its burden in order to allow forgiveness to prevail making it a solo job for you to do..
it took me a long time to realize the actual essence behind this ritual and what it requires of you as a human to do and the sacrifice that you must make within yourself when you let shit go..i mean really walking that path of no longer harboring resentment or hostility that the ego does so generously..it means standing inside your soul and allowing yourself the ability to become free without judgment while making peace within yourself cleaning the slate of self..
sometimes its hard to let something go, that has offered up years of so much comfort and emotional company to the wounded self that doesn’t believe in healing..that lower vibration inside of us that pounds really strong and deep is actually purposely derailing one from hearing the angelic song of its spirit, there as your harmonic light guiding you back to the highest form of self..
there is a collective unity negativity giving you a place that doesn’t require of you to do anything productive, keeping you living at the smallest form of the human experience possible..there is no real power in the gloom one creates from its shadow of self, almost starving and denying the true purpose of what we are supposed to be doing as a jew on the holist day..in actual essence it has nothing to do who any body else but you..
I think some people truly believe that by offering up forgiveness you are justifying the acts of cruelty that was experienced at the hands of another..the truth is, the more energetic lines you have attached to the negative experiences that are held on too, the more electrocuting jolts you continue to get, creating more damage than the original metaphorical assault you had suffered making you your own continued abuser..
this past year, I had another revelation of self forcing me to do some real self exploring and standing up for what I believe..it forced me to demand of things I was cornered to ask and received answers that I had to decided what to do with once the truth was reveled..i had to take on accountability and admit when I wasn’t equipped to handle life as it was unfolding before me having to ask for outside help which nobody really wants to do..
i have seen and witnessed people in their rawest state of being showing the nature and colors of who they really are and figuring out how to navigate in a healthy and unresentful way that frees me from the ties that bind and often suffocates the flow of positive energy..i choose daily how I want to respond to others but more so how I choose to respond to myself, offering a gentle loving hand creating compassion where it once was severely depleted..
I learned that it is ok to be mad without resentment doing no harm but taking no shit, allowing myself to feel the actual emotion without trying to control it and molding it bigger than what it is..yes I am human and fail at this technique at times yet know in my minds eye that this is all apart of our human elevation..owning your shit is half the battle and being able to just be in it without any manipulation is the other part of the equation..
sometimes is about being conscious on a daily participation and reviewing your actions as either a benefit or a work of improvement making adjustments where adjustment are needed..i have discovered my spirit bear within, that when poked is quite a sight for the pokers eyes..i have started to become friends with that bear inside who is vicious at times, offering up unconditional love and support instead of prejudge and judgment when she is present..
I hope you all can find a healthy genuine way to make peace within, finding the sanctuary of self that offers you solace in your most needed times..i wish for man kind to be more open to the restoration of the human spirit and being able to collectively come together to break bread despite outer differences..i didn’t need to not shower today, or not be able to eat to be consider myself a good jew in order to figure out about the knowledge of presence while working each moment on becoming a healthier human being..peace love faith hope <3