Ive been criticized in the past for publicly blogging about what some might deem as “dirty laundry”, exposing some deep dark layers from my own experienced truth. Even though it happens to differ or clash with opposing sides to a once upon a time family, playing ignorant as a deflective tool doesn’t eliminate the circumstance & experiences that happened. This family history alone of behavior & dynamics before I ever came adopted into the picture speak alone for itself.
I believe part of the reason why I finally have my shit together & was able to properly heal is that I’m no longer hiding in the shadow of secrets that have plagued this family for generations. By bringing my own story to light, I set free the darker secrets I held in the mental dungeon of my mind out of fear that had continued to harm my over all being. This also gave a powerful energetic healing flow to my children & my children’s children to energetically shift the dynamics of this once toxic inheritance a healing healthy future.
We come into the world naturally uncultivated, pure & instantly programed with a families own code of ethics & morals. Sometimes as children we are not to question these systems that are already in place, making us only to be seen & not heard. We are instructed to behave within this structure of dynamics not knowing any differently until we begin to engage in the outside world for ourselves, seeing an array of different experiences, circumstances & upbringings.
What I know now is that I was raised in the home with a narcissistic adopted mother who’s own personal human compass of ethics & morals was distorted & exaggerated from her own personal trauma & upbringing. When you begin to heal the facets to your own unique history, you automatically bring back the light that generates a positive healthier outlook destroying the ideas & beliefs that was previously limiting . This toxic contagion is a man made virus that is duplicated over & over again, infiltrating any space that has a host for spreading & implant negative ideas for the mimicking human overtake.
This in itself is a huge reoccurring human conditioning theme. Historically we have witnessed these types of behaviors, down to its original generational roots & unaware of its harmful wrong doings. Many people even today are oblivious & or blinded as a tool of convienience of their status quo life, not wanting to ruffle any feathers to see its painful truth. We all carry to some degree the burden of our own storage locker of secret emotions, which often times when provoked becomes disguised & translated into angry negative feelings. Hurt people, hurt people.
I believe we are in the center of a human social experience with an explosion of unhealed childhood trauma continually showing up in the adult division of the world, raising their own offspring in the same manner. Now a days, it feels very over populated with fear & anger deliberately bating you into its own agenda & narrative. There are so many hateful used tactics in order to harness its credibility & dismantle the minds ability to naturally & instictively think for its self. Stupidity has become a social norm disease, that leaves us socially deficient in the end, creating space while filling in the gaps with a false sense of stability & reality as a cover.
What i have learned from my own personal experiences is that secrets will always make us emotionally, mentally, physically sick & shame is a way to keep you quiet. Find ways to generate your own personal narrative of truth for healing & alignment. Only once we are able to master our own source of self healing, can we begin to naturally make this the new world contagion that promotes love, kindness & unification. Peace Love Faith Hope <3 <3 <3
Repost From July 2017