If you knew your time was of true value & worth, would you continue to share your space with the people you currently surround yourself with? Lately over the last few years, I have found myself more apt to be socially, physically reclusive, naturally without provoking this unconscious behavior in pulling away from others while nurturing the things that are far more important to me.
I feel less inclined to make public what is going on with me personally, especially threw social media outlets allowing things to become more sacred for myself. Im no longer apt from a balanced ego standpoint to make my self feel socially relevant & use the clicks of like from people to feel special. I am all that without the confirmation from the outlets that in reality can become unhealthy, addictive & disruptive to the reality of a natural exisstance.
I just got exhausted in sharing this space with others that lack the same quality of life I want & need to exist in, not feeling the need to stuff the gaps with superficial emptiness that offers no fuel in its drive. There is nothing worse than having a people induced hangover, leaving you to feel depleted with waisted effects that in reality feel toxic & heavy. I came to understand that my time is of true value & I learned its imperative to invest wisely in the space that you occupy. My bullshit radar is finally working.
Sometimes we have to do what is going to be good for us, becoming loyal to yourself instead of the external world that demands your allegiance. Rehabbing from people over the last few years has been highly therapeutic in my healing venture, giving me the opportunity to choose which audience I wish to participate in & when. I no longer feel drained by situations that had once left me feeling like shit, opening up the space to attract more like minded humans I wish to connect with.
This pandemic has forced the inevitable & made it really beneficial to reconstruct the life I wish to create with my husband, expanding the horizon farther than I knew it before. It’s given me the push, drive & permission to really laser in & focus more on the wants & needs that inspire the growth of our own individual human spirit & the people I wish to share it with. Peace Love Faith Hope <3 <3 <3