MEAN GIRLS EXIST and who really wants to get stung by the queen bee and all her fucking workers!

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ugh, I can remember back when I was a teenager once upon a time ago, and being purposely left out of parties and group hangouts that every body else got invited too except for me..i can still recall that emotion of sadness and feeling like a pathetic loser washing over me as my heart hurt and my soul cried when I found out that my close friends got the invite while I was left on the outside of the circle..kids are mean.. (but truthfully grown ups are worse, because they know better)..

it was as if i was essentially sequestered from the rest of the fun purposely or at least that’s how it had felt to me.. lets face it, MEAN GIRLS EXIST and who really wants to get stung by the queen bee and all her fucking workers!its never really ever been fun being the one on the outside, even at the expense of it bringing joy to the hive who get to do the excluding intentional or not..

in truth though, its something I still see happening to this day with various different groups of people and situations yet choose not to subscribed too because its disguising behavior..i have never worked for a” hive” or her “highness” in hope to social climb a ladder to gain the attention of the stupid people leader idiots idolize..shit what I realized after so many confused years later is those nests are filled with nasty hornets going for blood just to save their own face..nothing popular about that at all.

miraculously though I some how made it though my teens of truly wanting to hurt myself into loving my self in my 20, my 30 and my 40s taking the opportunity to heal, grow and evolve from these awful situations that could either break your ass down or build you up making you one fierce hell of a warrior..id like to say that I am one bad ass, but truthfully, I could still cry for that once broken sweet little girl within because I can still feel her when I see it happening to my own daughters..

so when im asked for advice about situations like this that I am some how a professional in, my gut reaction is to shred apart the person causing such pain and tears to this sweet child of mine..it hits me so close to home that I have to pause relax and sit back while not coming from my heart of  personal experience yet as the wise teacher instead..i try to offer her up my wisdom but the truth is when your young and naive, you cant see the friendship flags till its already too late..

mean people suck, at any age and in any circle..hopefully I have raised them well enough to know through the seams of the illusion, the ultimate power of love is between their ribcage beaming inward and outward radiating all around them even when it feels like your capsized by the hurt..that no matter how left out you are or feel, there is always a place in for you to be..

sometimes it is a hard lesson to learn the truth about people we think are our friends and family revealing flaws through the perception of what we saw as beauty..some times we want so badly to fit in, we will behave anyway in order to gain the acceptance by people who do rotten things to others..sometimes we participate solely to remain relevant in the social graces of the hive even though we know better because the truth is, you know your only one turn away from it being you..there are definite perks to being a free agent friend! peace love faith hope

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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