its our 6 YEAR ANNIVERSARY today WOOOOO HOOOO and it has been quite the joy ride to get here while we are still standing strong..i think we have finally put to rest all the naysayers who didn’t believe or approve of our decision, and lost those who weren’t willing to get on board or really make it past the first destination to be frank with our crazy magical once in a life time story that got us to where we are now, but fuck them, 6 years later and LOVE STILL WON!
you see 6 years ago, without “permission” or even really any bodies approval I did something so outrageous and crazy to those who believed they had once knew me and secretly married Eran..when we made this decision, I wasn’t really thinking about every body else for a change and decided to take a gamble with my own heart this time and follow my own intuition and gut for the first time after 2 prior failed marriages..
so we went to court house with 3 witnesses, and for 10 BUCKS we got hitched..to make it even more magical, the magistrate who married us in Novi unbeknownst to us happened to be Jewish and gave us the blessings in Hebrew adding to the already beautiful story a religious finishing that might have other wise been missing by doing this in court..another bashert moment from the divine shidduch that brought us back together decades later..we are truly blessed..
it was a day of pure love and joy and the best decision I have ever made for myself, even though we were about to face the worst set of unwelcoming and unloving behavior 2 grown ass people who love each other and are GOOD people mind you should ever have to face or experience..the shit storm waiting once we let the secret out of the bag was something so embarrassing and appalling from people who once were supposed to be my family..
my children were poisoned in this process and then used against me from the aid of their grandparents who encouraged and made them feel as if I was an incompetent mother and a bad influence on them trying to smear my reputation in the process..imagine for a moment, your own parents telling your children these horrible things about you because you chose to follow your heart..i also had a sloppy boundary ex husband who felt it was his place to tattle my behavior to his EX in laws and while misery loves company together they bonded and united as allies, while I became the outsider and enemy..
I can feel my blood starting to boil just by writing this because the thought of how this all played out from something so beautiful, in the end is something most people couldn’t afford to lose, yet WE SUCCECCED..i didn’t let the puppet master pull my stings, and created vital healthy boundaries that were in the end unlivable and unsustainable for family members to respect and ties were cut and severed and I learned that life truly does go on…
sometimes, pure authentic raw vulnerable love has a value if your willing to really invest and pay into it..sometimes, your love might disappoint those around you and its up to you to decided how valuable it is for you to keep..sometimes, partners are chosen for us that are not our taste and standard yet appease others whos opinion are more important than our own, costing yourself the soul and spirit in the process..sometimes, you have to MAKE A STAND for what you believe and not care about those who fall short and away due to their own short comings which has everything to do with the limited them and not you at all..
our love is a true love story of magical, divine intervention, and BLESSINGS..god sent me an angel that one fall September day, for all the hard personal inner work I was doing to clear my mind body and spirit..i don’t believe in coincidence or random acts of happenings..i believe my prayers were finally answered and I was tested to see how badly I truly honestly really wanted it and what I was willing to do to receive it..
happy anniversary my beautiful beloved husband..you are my rock, my souls half and the pulse to my heart..XOXOXOXOXOXOX I wouldn’t change this story for anything in the world, its perfectly perfect as is! I love you always forever eternally <3