ever since I was a kid, I have been an a very simple blue jean loven, tee shirt tomboy kinda girl with no aspirations of being rich, famous or even being professional for that matter..although I grew up in a stereo typical Jewish professional household, i was slightly (snort snort) expected to have the persona of the typical Jewish America princess ( JAP) yet I enjoyed being carefree and getting dirty and climbing trees instead..so I rebelled against the path before me..
I have always tooted to my own horn and didn’t really care what was “IN” at the time according to others..i liked to dress according to what made me feel good, and what I thought was trendy, even if I choose to wear crystals before it as a thing..i once upon a time had safety pins all the way up my pant leg driving my mother mad making my pepe jeans become super skin tight and so cool..i also cut all my hair off without permission and started to look new wave and super bitchen Depeche mode, ministry cool with my cherries in the snow bright pink fuchsia Revlon lipstick..my kids got nothing compared to me..
I have rocked the way I roll no matter what has been expected of me, even now to this day..i have always stayed true to my classic boring unique don’t give a fuck style, and can magically pull off a dress when I must by jazzing that shit up with my trademark fishnet stockings..you can dress me up but you cant take me out my husband always says because I hate being uncomfortable more than anything else in the word..and being fancy takes up to much time and is way too overrated if you ask me..
I prefer to be an aspiring beam of light, making people smile, feel good, talk deep and shit..i would rather have people notice me for my bubbling personality and heart that makes you at times want to spit your coffee out, over what kind of label and or category of status you want to shove me in that I could give a fuck about..yea, im that kind of a jewish girl with an occult like flavor..
ill never forget once years ago, I was speaking to another manicurist client who was wearing something so cool and beautiful and I asked her where she got it from..she basically insinuated that I couldn’t afford this store in her stuck up beneath her kind of way and wouldn’t bother to tell me the shop she got it from while oozing her snobbery all over me putting her nose up at me AS IF..barf..i bet if we were both standing naked she wouldn’t feels so superior having this conversation..just sayen!
I have never been much of an extreme diamond lover, gold digger, social climber, friend snatcher, clothes and accessory whore kinda gal (except handbags) and often find those who are very limiting, for me at least..i have never really ran in a clique because I get bored way to easily and pretty much have enjoy myself over anybody else except for a handful of life long members in my friendship tribe..i guess you could say that i am a rare one of a kind..
for me, being a good person, with healthy values, and an adaptable secure nature is more important than all the other stuff..i see people rewrite their truths to fit the pockets of another without ever realizing their doing it, just to fit in..i see people spend more than they make in order to maintain their status quo within a group, OR ELSE..i see people dress to the nine, without a single inch of authentic self beneath the fabric, fuck i would hate to be that mirror..
I think its time for a universal change, to start to under consume instead of over consume which we have resorted too to fill all the empty voids in our lives..i think its time to get hard core real and begin to simplify again, even if your mega wealthy and can afford to buy the entire planet..who fucking cares..
be a light of positivity, even if your ego feels its “beneath” you, get out of your way and do something unlikely just to show yourself that you can be humanly nice..be a healthy positive influence in the world, by owning your truth without editing yourself for convenience..under dress yourself for a change physically spiritually mentally while not taking life so seriously and just be a breath of fresh air without the requirement of a selfie..peace love faith hope..