it was 6 years ago today in the midst of a evening winter michigan blizzard, that I had schlepped both of my kids out, and proceeded without any permission to pick up my unannounced future husband at the airport..while every other passenger had made their way out, I was left empty handed still waiting for my knight and shinning armor to coming running through the doors and into my arms..
what I didn’t realize at the time and unbeknownst to me was that Eran was actually being held and interrogated for over 2.5 hours as my girls and i waited patiently in the car at the pick up line..he had traveled in on a 10 year visa from Israel and was stopped anyways, searched and then taken to some interrogation room as the entire airport emptied out and was closing down due to the extreme horrible weather..thank god for jeeps and the deputy that finally released him to me..
neither one of us knew exactly what we were doing, or how in fact we were going to do it, but we did, BECAUSE LOVE ALWAYS WINS..who would have ever thought that we would have survived so much shit throw our way, but here we are stronger and better for it all..sometimes, when the rest of the world is rooting for your failure, there is a sense of desire to show them, to teach them actually, what the true meaning of following your heart and soul is, and what LOVE REALLY LOOKS LIKE and so we did..
did we have some hard ugly times in achieving this goal, of course we did, nothing worth anything of value comes without some sort of suffering, that’s life..were we utterly and completely at times alone, while being single handily being left out purposely..of course we were, more times than I can ever admit out of embarrassment for them..some people really stepped up to the plate while sucking at being family and friends, displaying extreme asshole behavior, but we made it through still laughing and smiling..
did we have to cut corners and cut back while living using only the most basic of simplest needs while we restructured the foundation of this home, of course we did.. did we have to go through the necessary process for a green card and pay hundreds upon hundreds of dollars for it, we did, and still managed to live a happy and simple life..did we have to share one car when eran started to work so we could both make our living together, of course we did, and even managed within a year plus to add another car to our household..
people have so many excuses that keep and hold them back, not ever taking a leap of faith..some people are so over worried about what everyone thinks and feels allowing the chirpy chatter of opposition to occupy the thoughts changing the course of intended destiny..nothing in the end will ever set you more back than the “you” inside that cant believe in yourself..HARD CORE TRUTH..
the people who don’t believe in you and try to sabotage you along your way, i can tell you first hand, will get bored in the end when your strength outnumbers their hatred and they dont matter anyways..it might really suck at times to have to say no to plans all the times because you simply cant afford to go out, but your real friends, I mean you will discover your real friends, they will invite you out or to their home and make you feel like your important, even while you appear to look financially screwed and not let you feel bad about it because LOVE ALWAYS WINS..
so to the last 6 years, I SALUTE you..to my husband and his unwavering love, you are, the pulse to my heart…too the journey that stripped me down while allowing me to be raw and vulnerable I thank you from every corner of my being..it is because of all this that I am able to be here, exposed and utterly transparently me..there is nothing more authentically beautiful than that..
my ultimate wish always here is for someone to not feel so alone and to take something anything from my journey and feel slightly empowered and alive enough to know they are not nor ever alone..peace love faith hope