some times you are unable to make sense of things that happen in your life and why, spending so much time and energy in a negative contemplation..eventually like always, when the dust begins to settle, you will have the opportunity to see the situation in a much clearer different light offering you clarity and resolution if your able to accept it for what exactly it is..which is by far the hardest of things to do..
it requires you to change your standard of thinking and living, pushing you into a spectrum of uncharted territory with the potential of choppy waters..it forces you to have to see yourself in all capacities if your able to look at your self long enough in your reflection..we turn to everybody else for our salvation, because we are at times paralyzed with disgust at the image before us..before you can expect the outside world of a universe to shift in your favor, you must first be willing to shift the inside kingdom of your spiritless self first..
what is often our greatest fear, will become our most precious personal achievement..i used to be altered to believe I had no choices and that I was utterly POWERLESS, that my “bad” behavior summed up really bad consequences by those I was opposing that were destructive, destroying the warmth of my soul slowly..it occurred to me in my late 30s that the consequences for me choosing to stand up and leave anything that wasn’t supporting nourishing loving me wasn’t a consequence at all, but an enlightened passage of finally having the balls to just walk away..
there is a twisted belief that is ingrained in us all about how you allow someone to treat you..i cant blame any body other than myself for allowing it for so long, compromising my belief and the most beautiful arts of my heart..its when you decide to draw your sword and mark your boundary line do you find out who is encouraging your progress and supporting your growth and who wants to continue to mark their territory upon you like a piece of property that the own..nobody like someone that changes away from the circle that continues to spin in its own circles making everything around them dizzy and truth distorting..
I happened to have a birthday the other day, being the face of the ripe age of 47 PROUDLY..i used to think this age was so ancient and old, until I began the journey of getting here and seeing the infinite wisdom it holds and offers in experience and knowledge..as I sit closely at the edge of getting to a half a century, I smile with pride that I am me, authentically, abundantly, proudly and happily..i have never felt more beautiful in my physicality, my spirituality, my mental capacity, feeling the deep connections between this mind body and spirit..
don’t be afraid to capsize the sinking ship as you climb up and onward towards something that allows you to seek the evolution of your human spirit..don’t be chicken to say what it is you have longed to say if it is the truth, and not your ego distorting the real intentions of your feelings..uphold your wholeness in a way that it wont allow others to dismantle your spirit in hopes of needing you to be small again..be brave and courageous even if its hurts, all pain is temporary and needed when your intended to grow out of the size you are no longer suited for..let your love radiate powerfully energetically profoundly being the compass in charge of your joyride! peace love faith hope