I went to my monthly tarot meet up yesterday at the Boston tea room which is a metaphysical shop located in downtown Ferndale..to me, its the equivalent of my daughter madi, who’s obsessed with make up, going to Sephora..i feel like my inner child is awakened in this kind of environment as I get to “play” and “dabble” in the occult and bring that beautiful witch out from inside of me..
lately, I have had to do a lot of self reflection, because of circumstances that became beyond my control that were happening around me, and effected me gravely..ironically yesterday, the moon energy moved into its new moon of Scorpio that facilitates your shadow work that you are being summoned to do if you can hear the calling..
this energy is about taking your fear and transforming it into something beautifully ambitious taking yourself out of its state of being scared, and becoming courageous in your own stance..its about finding its inner light within the darkest parts of your being and allowing a flicker of hope to trickle within sparking a force that allows you to escape the mental blocks that hold you hostage..its all about the transformation of ones self, that only you can do for yourself.
its been said to be one of the loneliness jobs, this shadow work, because you required to be seated deep inside the deepest darkest places with only and your shadow testing your limits..the only person there to save you and offer you the salvation of this existence is YOU..most people have a hard time with their shadow because of the negative emotions of guilt and shame that linger and cover those places we keep hidden under the carpet..
unknowingly, a couple of weeks ago, I was forced to flip the carpet up and exposed some very dark and detailed feelings and TRUTHS to people who needed to hear my truth surrounding situations that are most hurtful and abusive towards me..not everybody is capable in handling some one else’s truth , yet most people are able to show a nurture of compassion and empathy when pain and hurt are present..
i unfortunately was not greeted by these emotions and instead was belittled, dismissed, devalued, scrutinized, discredited, disposed of, brushed off, minimized for my fillings, tried to be manipulated, distorting what happened all in one profound conversation..this allowed me to see the hidden truth of who I am to them, and who they are not ever going to be to me..although gutting in pure emotion I knew with my shadow self the prophetic work that had taken place by me unravelling before them, forcing their hand at truth and finally after 47 years, recieving the answers I always believed inside to be real for the final last time..
sometimes, we want SOOO badly to believe in something that isn’t true, rather than have to deal with the utter consequence and the manifestations of feelings that surround it..it isn’t easy to heal your self while immersed in a storm of uncertainty, yet I believe I have learned to swim fearlessly in the waters of my shadow..i have had to go back into my childhood and find a way to thread up the wounds that are in need of healing, because it continued to trickle into my every day life holding me back creating fear, where fear doesn’t really need exist..
I decided to use the perks of this energy tapping into it and make it into something transmittable so the universe can hear and feel my foundation shifting while help shaping it into something other than it was before..like the fall leaves, im letting go physically spiritually mentally of things, ideas and people who are no longer viable in the arena of my life, making room for the up and coming I wish to attract instead..
pay close attention to what it is your projecting and then receiving from it..use your experience as a mirror to ask yourself questions that can offer you conclusions as to why things happen..this is a most beautiful delicate time of year, and the new moon in Scorpio is just an added magical spooktacular ingredient to everything else around it, if your courageous enough to do the authentic work that it requires of you to do..peace love faith hope