I have had a bloggers block lately, not really that’s a lie but I cant write about half of the shit I would like to write about because they aren’t so politically nice and possibly personally offensive..truthfully, I think a lot of people can serve you a dish of shit and then be offended when you push it back in their face asking them to eat from it instead, shocked that you would even suggest such a thing not realizing the effects of their own poison that they believe to be sweet..
my writing became a way for me to purge all the things we go through that nobody wants to discuss out of shame, rejection, guilt, outing one self that I don’t have a problem doing ..i really have never given a fuck about what other people think of my truth, and the experiences that I have had that have made me who I am, PROUDLY..because LOVE ALWAYS WINS.
i have walked rather crawled away with my head held high from many different situations that might have left me broken into pieces and left to be washed into the gutters of my personal sewer systems but instead chose to use all these valuable lessons as advantages for my personal development and growth creating me into an enlightened scholar..
I share my infinite wisdom as a means to give someone else an understanding that they are not alone since I know first hand that feeling and am not afraid to express my vulnerability and the fact that I am above all..human..there is a higher calling to our lessons learned and should be shared and used as a tool to aid in the help of others struggling along their path if you are fearless enough to do so, which thankfully I am..
sometimes, there is everything personal with what I have to say and write and sometimes is it simply thoughts from yonder using me as the messenger because I have a twisted way of making it beautiful and worth ever last ounce of pain..so when your reading what I write and it speaks to you on personal levels of accountability or being able to identify, relatable material that whispers, speaks, screams, shout at you to hear me roar and wake up than im glad enough you were in tuned enough to listen..
I pulled a tarot card today , a long over due while from my handy dandy beloved deck..my picture speaking people of friends I enjoy hanging out with while I receive messages..i got the KING OF PENTACLES while asking what is it I need to know and then out of no where it hit me..i have been sitting with some loyalty feelings lately which has left me to question and reassess the spaces I occupy and sit in..
when I think of the king of pentacles I think of my husband and the riotousness that he displays in a very honest loyal trust worthy way.. think about the love and support he has given to me and the unconditional sense that comforts my spirit and soul when wrong is done upon me..this card is also my reminder to return back to nourish my spirit and dive back into my spiritual quest for purpose and meaning showing up more for the moment..
everything else in the end doesn’t matter as much as the truth we feel about ourselves, since you cant change or control others in the world..you can only change how you choose to respond to the ciaos they wish to exist and you do you in the best way possible always honoring yourself and those who deserve your love to the fullest..so I sit with my beloved black liquid gold and hold it high raising my mug to the universe..
may we all find humble kindness and compassion in our heart for those who deserve much differently( this is the enlightened way) because in essence hurt people tend to hurt other people..in a world where violence and hate are beyond prevalent and is an ugly universal epidemic of human beings terrorizing other humans, to respond with seething evil words and hate is only stimulating more horrifying energy the world is already over saturated with..
so im sending out love of healing and love of WHITE light radiating over this world and imagining it saturating into all the homes and hearts of MANKIND..i ask the divine spirit of the universe to forgive our horrible acts of violence of any degree we cause on to others and help aid in the human spirit recovery that is desperately needed..please heal our people hearts so we can all live and love honor and respect each other together peacefully harmoniously..i truly believe that LOVE WILL ALWAYS WINS..peace love faith hope