sometimes the universe has a divine way of showing up for you..

I have had a couple of unexpected validating moments recently and even more so have noticed them profoundly after having to make a crystal grid for a home work assignment for my crystal healing course im currently enrolled in…this grid I created from scratch was specifically made to help allow for my professional growth and transformation using crystals and elementals in a geometrical pattern choosing the Star of David because it was done during Rosh Hashanah..

yesterday, I was co hosting a podcast that we started a few weeks ago with a friend and were talking about past lives and reincarnation..dori, my co host was asking me to share in my experiences of what I believe to be a “knowing” and during my explanation of me believing that I was once an Egyptian (due to the feeling I got while living in Israel and in a land that I feel so abundantly connected too), I shit you not “walk like an Egyptian” by the bangles started playing in the background..i haven’t heard that song on the radio for YEARS.. Continue reading “sometimes the universe has a divine way of showing up for you..”

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I applied to be a TEDTALK presenter..

I applied to be a TED TALK DETROIT presenter a while back, thinking about how fun it would be to get up on stage and story tell as to how I came into working with crystals and the healthy benefits of alternative healing that are just as important to the mind body and spirit connection..

I think when I filled out the application I was half serious and half taking the piss being silly with myself, really just acting out of the bravery of my inner will wanting to spiritually begin to farm my ideas wherever they may grow..

Sometimes you have to be willing to go outside of your normal domain if you want to play in the big league to get anywhere other than where you currently already requires, no DEMANDS of you to step OUT and be vulnerable and susceptible for any type of open criticism that may come your way..

The irony in all this for me personally was the amount of positive supportive feed back I received regardless of the overall outcome because of who I am, what I do and the power to which I do it..

There will always be snarky naysayers who will try to derail you from your journey, yet those are the people who are motivated out of their own lack of worth looking to rain on your parade while then turning around and try to make it their own..

I waited patiently for months to a response that came with a regret to inform you email, that out of 109 submissions with only 8 time slots available, yours wasn’t one that we chose to select..

After rereading it several times with admittedly a bit of relief, I decided that this was an excellent form of rejection and opportunity..Instead of seeing it as a negative, ive decided to run with it and take this year to really work on my shit so I can actually submit a real application with a video and some resumes esk details for next time..

If life offers you some sort of a road block, you have the decision to make as to how important it is for you to arrive at your destination..sometimes you have to be willing to navigate roads less traveled to arrive at where you want to be and those who have become successful are the ones who didn’t give up after the first road block..

So salute to my first TEDTALK rejection and thank you for even reviewing my application and taking the time to decline..if I have lit a fire cracker up some one elses ass by wanting to to apply for this brilliant platform themselves now, than I have successfully spiritual influenced and inspired someone other than myself..peace love faith hope ❤ ❤ ❤








ive tried on the age of 50, and I feel like a warrior badass goddess..

I like to round up my numbers to the nearest tenth, mostly because I suck at math and it makes adding easier for my age of 48 counting on my fingers isn’t attractive any more and if you knew me in person you would understand that for me counting on my fingers is a disadvantage based on the fact that im missing half of one to count..(insert laughter and snorting)

So I have been trying on lately (for shits and giggles) this coming age of 50 by rounding up my number when telling my age, wearing it around feeling kinda sexy proud that im almost a half a century old..its almost like the expensive handbag I used to visit at nordstroms that I would pretend was mine and proclaim that one day I would really be able to take it home..then one day my husband surprised me with the bag and the rest has become my Rebecca minkoff history..

There is something about getting older and doing it gracefully that I have embraced physically, mentally and spiritually that I am more in tuned too now than I ever was in my 20 and 30s..i really care about what I choose to nourish my body with for sustenance surrounding food and energetic properties and have broken up with lots of things that no longer benefit me in this powerful ageless growth process that I now don’t really give a shit about..

I believe stress, diet, and our emotions are a leading factor to so many health problems taking a toll on our over all being and making the aging process much faster than you can imagine..i had the neck of an old haggard lady prior to my surgical fusion (c3-c7) almost 9 years ago at the age of 39, realizing the amount of unnecessary stress I held captive in every crevice of my body..with a sheet of titanium and 8 screws and bolts, my neck is held together beautifully and I don’t take this life for granted any more..

Ive been noticing my menstrual cycle slowly beginning to fade away naturally with its lengthy absence, and then reappearing out of no where..with the support and help of my husband, I go for acupuncture (he’s the best) and a healer to help stabilize, balance and nourish all these wonderful transitions physically and emotionally so I am healthy as I change, grow, heal and evolve into the later part of my years..

I think there is something sexy in the coming age of 50 and the freedom of being secure in my skin that I have grown to love wrinkles, cellulite and flabby skin and all..its almost like the new 30’s except I am wiser and no longer in need to contribute to bullshit conversations and false friendships that are there as smoke, mirrors and social climbing during the season of raising your children..i can finally be the me WITHOUT APPOLOGY..

So salute to the woman of the real 50, who wear their age like a WARRIOR BADASS GODDESS of divine happily coming for you ❤ peace love faith hope


*inspired by coffee, love, and deep committed training..

*educate your self in a way that allows you to set your intention to something your authentically doing that bring you joy and happiness, regardless of the exterior voices that chirp to diminish your natural creativity..

*stay grounded in your purpose if what you are doing is a healthy outlet that promotes your souls ability to manifest the growth within that has the opportunity to create abundance and prosperity around you..

*remain true to your own path and not the path of guilt that has been assigned to you, even if it seems discouraging at times making it feel hard for you to travel on a rocky road alone, it is here you will find your greatest insights of the world around you.. Continue reading “*inspired by coffee, love, and deep committed training..”

how emotional dis ease can affect our health on an energetic level..

I had a crystal revelation moment (most of you from facebook will probably stop reading at this point) while I was outside rereading my vibrational medicine was part of my reading curriculum for the crystal healing certification course I completed in the winter, finding the book highly fascinating and educational in my evolution of being a healing spiritual influencer..

Sometimes we tend to move through things out of pure excitement and joy missing the elemental factors that are in plane sight..we are so occupied with binging everything that excites us, not really paying as close attention as we should be missing key factors that eventually, hopefully we pick back up in other ways, maybe..

When we think of the human body from an energetic point of view (go ahead and put your kookoo hat on for a minute), we have the ability to view our “body” from an etheric advantage, expanding outward moving into emotional, vital and astral auras bodies of our entire being..yes, they actually exist..

So basically our human energy field is like a radiating bubble around making us vulnerable and susceptible to many factors we come in contact with verbally, emotionally, mentally and physically that we never actually gave thought or value too in terms of ourselves and with can be affected without ever noticing you have actually been violated and dumbed on.

Take for instance (flow with me) someone standing in line at a store while being privy to a heated argument between two other people standing in the same line..while nobody is ever needing to physically put hands on another to be affected, the words and emotional exchange alone hold a charge that penetrates into your own astral field of energy..this has a subtle effect depending on the experience believe it or not, which is thankfully in this situation just a temporary moment of inconvenience..

Its really the same analogy (to break it down for you better) if you were all collectively taking a shit together in the same bathroom with individual toilets and simultaneously flushing your waste with the seats covers open..this then leads to having all the bacteria from the toilet come up and microscopically spatter its contents on and around you contaminating you without you really noticing but maybe being slightly grossed out..this is why I flush with the seat down..

If you are sensitive enough to other people energy, you might walk out of a situation thats compromised you in your energy field feeling tired, drained, annoyed simply by being subjected too it, just like you would be polluted in a bathroom..most people in general are not even aware of what they pick up like toxic cling, walking around the rest of the day with some one else’s funk on imagine living your life in constant energetic infestation..

Sometimes we even happen to continue the story of what we experienced at the store, internalizing it past one of our external senses that alters our thoughts and emotions for the rest of the day..this could cause us to become agitated, or bitchy, feeling sluggish or have an upset stomach without ever piecing together the cause and effect that it had taking it into our lives uninvited..

What occurred to me while I was reading was the idea of working to purify each unseen but very real layer of our energetic field that we have and reprograming the thoughtforms that have found a way to nestle and bury themselves into each existing layer all the way into our physical body..boy that was one long very scientific sentence for someone who couldn’t pass a biology or chemistry course EVER in her educational years..snort snort

Think about it for a scientific minute, every 7 years our cells regenerate all on their own basically creating a new series of nuclear building block for our entire being yet in the same energetic space and the way, every 7 years we move into a different chakra starting with birth at what is called the ROOT CHAKRA within our body system learning the values of each of its 7 centers..every 7 years we move up the chakra system and at the age of 49 they reset all together and then we begin living what we learned in each chakra beginning at the root..

How might this be important, well, if you think about it from a energetic point of view, every 7 years something profound is happening around and within us on a molecular and energetic level, without us ever knowing..when you become aware of all the things that surround you and go into the presence of being a human being with this much energy, you actually have more power over your health than what has been thought about and provided to us.. 

Although our cells might be new, the negative energetic compound of dis ease programmed into these place (sometimes lifetimes) continues to contain all of negative charged if it goes unhealed emotionally, spiritually, mentally and physically the cells don’t really have a chance and begin to change into the condition of the old pattern again repeating the same behavior on a molecular level..god that was exhausting to explain..

The problem for most people I find is actually seriously working on their emotional shit..i mean really getting down and dirty allowing a true authentic real (no bullshit for instagram or facebook) healing to permitalty take place to what they have been subjected too and what they subjected others too..the biggest obstacle is the continuous loop lie we tell ourselves and everyone else over and over again to avoid the work that is necessary..

Instead, you see a growing number of repetitive problems with personality disorders, nutrition problems, addictive behaviors, entitled, lazy, egotistical culture of humans unaccountable for their own state of mind, health and over all being pointing their fingers at every one else because its too one wants to feel their pain and as a society we lack compassion and kindness for those who suffer..its much easier to diagnose and prescribe as a solution while the core problems continue to manifest..

You can have a life that isnt full of emotional, toxic thought infested mental static energetic yucky cling that will continue to penetrate and make you sick over and over again that no drug will ever begin to kill.. you are apart of the antidote HEAL THY SELF..for shits and giggle,  just notice the energy around you the next time you are around anything you don’t like (people, places, things) and  notice how you feel in your body participating in it and what your body does with the energy because of it..peace love faith  ❤ ❤ ❤










the “unspiritual” side to the spiritual self..

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ive been reclusive lately, mostly because ive been at that phase in life again for the millionth time where I just cant seem to be able to stand the idea of peopling anymore (snort snort) nor stand the sound of their HIGH PITCHED HI”S and everything else that come out of their mouths after or mine after for that matter..

i know it sounds horrible and just SOOOooo unspiritual and bla bla bla bla bla, openly admitting something I feel that some might see as so unkind..yet truthfully im not really worried about it because I just say what most of you are really already thinking, making us all collective assholes..i happen to not be afraid to wear my spirituality in a way that makes me translucent in this truth displaying all the facets to which i sparkle flaws and all..

I was listening to a pod cast last week about how we are so tight lipped tippy toed around the subject matter of our pureness with honesty when it appears to coincide with our spirituality and the ambience around spiritual as fuck borderline GANGSTA yet people in general i have no patience for anymore and am not afraid to admit it..there is truthfully nothing wrong with me expressing this and i realized i dont require a lesson of kindness because of it..knowing me, would know this !

im going to even drop a mic line and say its NOT you, its really just ME, loving my solitude staying within my tribal souls of goodness and love circle because I just cant stand the energetic vibe right now..i don’t need to subscribe to a forum of nonsense because its saturated in tye dye to offset the aroma of funk that no essential oil can mask..aura and energy tell all even in the downward dog and OM breathing breath of whatever you want to call it..

I feel so drained in this culture of the spiritual selfie explosion and the entitled belief with the amount of ME ME ME bullshit that’s filtered and without any moderation..people, your friends even, tell you what they think and believe you want to hear to help aid in the feeding and fixing of your ego..i cant even begin to tell you how unflattering it is to observe the amount of BS pouring out of the mouths of semi decent adult human beings acting as the saviors of the social media hotline society we are swarming in..

this is why i choose to lay low, have unfollowed half of my face book “friends” and blocked a dozen or so more, stopped apologizing for declining invitations for things that im allowed to say no to for my own personal self care reasons..i limit the amount of access i let in and let out and i certainly don’t judge my worth based on the social media numbers that in reality don’t mean a fucking thing..

for the first time in forever, i feel infinite and magical, even special for all for the right reasons of my own beautiful healthy self..i don’t look externally for my own happiness or seek others to fluff the ruffles i think are ridicules to have to wear.. i stopped crippling myself with beliefs that are meant to strangle your spirit and instead am living more of a care free life outside the lines every one else can color in..i am spiritually liberated and i feel GREAT ❤ peace love faith hope





storm survivor…


I found this the other day…I don’t even really need to write a blog to describe the meaning intended from this profound picture..

life will always give us opportunities to see who is standing under our umbrella when life hits hard, because it will that’s just par for the course..

it is here where you will find your people, your tribe, your ride n die crew..

so I ask of you to ask yourself..are you the kind of person who will show up with an umbrella or the type of person who will put on rain boots and play in the storm?

peace love faith hope..<3 ❤ ❤


I never knew how abused I was until I began to heal..

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I go to my healer every couple of weeks for overall self care, just like you would take your car to the gas station for fuel, I take my mind body and spirit to a healer..its a way for me to self care, unwind, connect, feel, talk, cry, and have someone untangle the energetic strings that sometimes get all mixed up as I am rebooted, charged and fueled with divine loving energy..

I embodied the theory of when you are no longer willing to tolerate something anymore, is when your life will begin to change and boy did it begin to change..what they don’t tell you is how the change will impact you (good, bad or indifferent) and alter the world around you creating a shift that you might not be mentally prepared for, yet unknowingly spiritually awaken to.. Continue reading “I never knew how abused I was until I began to heal..”

My true Father’s Day..

I don’t celebrate fathers day anymore after a couple of years ago my dad chose to have a relationship with my ex husband over choosing to keep me as his daughter..that’s the way this cookie crumbled, forcing me to make him choose a side that altered and effected the outcome for the rest of our lives..

it was in that moment that I wasn’t chosen that I realized I had to officially begin to mourn the loss of my living father who metaphorically died that day as my dad….ive been horribly criticized and ostracized for apparently abandoning my “parents”, even though it was they who didn’t choose me in end..their story will always continue to still makes them the victim..

you see, you get to a place in your abuse where you really don’t care anymore, because the oncoming inflicted pain is so calloused to that area that it doesn’t have the same effect any wasn’t until the moment they used my older daughter as a weapon for mass destruction did that pain strike a new nerve that seriously awakening my mama bear instead..who knew!

you can mess with me all you want, but the minute you fuck with my children sparks a whole new level of bear they were not ever prepared for..

I lost my shit that day, rightfully so after years and years of sucking it up and hearing the minimizing stench of dismissiveness, there is a brutal truth of mean spirited narcissistic parental abuse that I no longer wanted to subscribe too and enable from these adopted so called they were stooping to levels of using my children as a tactical ploy..

this is why I no longer celebrate days designed and assigned to the role of a parent..I finally learned this important and valuable lesson I spent years failing and begging for that in the end left me rejected as their daughter! Peace love faith hope❤️❤️❤️

I pronounce today, step dad day!



my husband is a step dad to our two girls for the last 7 years (now 21 and 16), who have each their own separate natural fathers from my previous marriages..

yes, you read that correct, I am a 3 time now very happily supported, nourished and beyond loved married woman who is now finally with the person I should have been with all can go back into my blog achieves and read all about our love story and how we landed is a modern day fairy tale..

I don’t think you ever really realize what you signed up for up for, until you are knee deep in enemy territory with an entire former family (I had to eventually cut family ties) rooting for your failure..still to this day mind you..

it is one of the hardest parental playing fields to have to navigate, especially when there are narcissistic adults involved who have purposely dismiss the step father role and his place in the family creating a wedge of hatred instead of a bridge of love..

I can tell you how much my husband loves us for not ever wanting to leave based on his personal experience over the course of the last 7 years with an entire family who chose to play dirty and defensively..

between the explosive verbal confrontations, the mental and emotional mind games, the  disrespect and abandonment..every step you took that was originally created for healthy ties seemed and felt like an opposing assassination waiting to annihilate us and him for being their step dad..

that alone says a lot about his commitment and character, his unconditional love and devotion to me and the girls he loves and cares for as if they are his own children.. 

i think as adults we have a responsibility to teach our children about the boundaries of a healthy loving relationships with ourselves and with others, and that personal boundaries don’t equate to someone being an asshole..

I think my husband has had an unfair ride with being a step father and has somehow managed to rise above all these horrendous obstacles while maintaining to continue to support, provide, nourish, invest, expand, grow, and give everything he has and can out of his love..

this speaks volumes louder than all the hate in our for that, I raise my grail of coffee this morning, the day before “fathers day” and give my beautiful husband who is never recognized his own day..

thank you for loving us unconditionally, for not giving up, for standing your ground, for not taking anybody elses shit, for teaching what loving a woman is supposed to look like, for having my back, for being a solid ground, for teaching morals and ethics that are prudent in a family, for never turning your back and for accepting the challenge of being the most beautiful strong elephant skinned step parent ever created! WE LOVE YOU..<3 ❤ ❤ peace love faith hope















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